Try to put the past where it belongs -- in the past. You'll find that it's not therapeutic to relive negative events that happened a long time ago. You may find yourself suddenly smarting from scars that have already healed. Events from your past could be affecting your present more than they should, so ask yourself why. Sharing your internal conflict with others isn't necessarily going to lend much clarity. Look inside yourself to determine what's really important to you. And when you're ready, put it all behind you and move forward.

Im having an absolute self pitty fest, and I don't know why, and I do not like it. Make it go away

Went to the shelter again today.. and in this heat.. Im nuts. but I have air conditioning in my convertable.. so in comfort I drove.. :) They had a ton of kittens up for adoption, including two mostly feral kitties. One little red one hissed when ever you looked at him. :( I picked up some more food for my brood, and told Bobbie about it, and she opened up my file to write it down, and somehow I was roped into taking four more.. (roped.. yea.. that's it. I didn't volunteer.. really.. *are you believing this?*) they all already have name.. and they all start with M.. :) One tortie med haired. one black tiger, and two seal points. VERY cute, and about the size of dahl, midnight (aka bear) and MC (aka bandit) The tortie (aka marigold) is quite friendly. the seal points aren't. but they are young, we'll work on that. I fed them, and they ate, but someone threw up.. :( Im sure its just cause they ate too fast. Im letting prin puff dini and dahl (cause he wont stay locked up) run around the house. did I mention its hot in here? Prin is panting like a fool.. she looks so pathetic/silly with that one eye mostly shut (but no longer pussing) and and her tongue hanging down to the ground.. :)

Im keeping PPD until after the fourth.. I will so miss this set.

Ding, ding, ding, ding, ding
goes my wagon, my wagon
its taking me to the nut factory,
De, de, de, de, de, de, de
Ding, ding, ding, ding, ding
goes my wagon, my wagon
can't you hear my keeper calling me? Hey you!
Just like a nut that falls, I'm a little cracked that's all
Ding, ding, ding, ding, ding
here comes my wagon, my kitty car, my train.
Whooo, whooo!

I have never liked george w bush.. I doubt I ever will.. but this just scares me..

but then again, most of the stuff I hear about coming out of the white house scares me these days

Happy Birthday Jeff!!!

*very big hugs*

got together with my parents and my sister's family yesterday (incase you didn't know, her birthday is the 23rd) My nephew who is four, finally started to pay attention to me. Up until now he's been a guy kind of guy, rough housing with the men. but I apparently held some facination to him yesterday.. we played rescue heros. We talked about the kitty he got (one I fostered) and even about the kitty he just lost.. My sister's cat Blotto (a maine coon type cat) up and disappeared a while ago. my nephew admitted almost out of the blue (cause we were in the middle of a rescue with the rescue heros) that he missed blotto and he asked me where he was. I said I didn't know, and that maybe he found a girl kitty to be with. Then he asked if blotto was dead.. which ofcourse was the exact moment the conversation in the other room went silent... talk about pressure.. :) I said he could be. and then we went back to rescue heros, and were playing with a finger kitty.. (because his new kitty bites him - but not hard - and I explained that scooter does that cause she doesn't have any fingers to give him hugs with)

I was lamenting to the hubster on the way over that I didn't want to go, cause they were just going to give me dishes which I do not want (my mother decided I had to have a china pattern so they could give me dishes and accessories for gifts like my mother and my sister have and we do to them) well for some reason this is a totally unacceptable thing to give my husband even though he does use the dishes. He gets cool gifts and toys, and I get china.. *rolls eyes* but this year was a bit different. I just got a pool table, so I got pool equipment. a bridge, a cool graphite stick, and a brass chalk holder. However, I got a cheesecake for a cake (my sister got a whipped cream cake) I do not like cheesecake. I don't like cake in general either.. however my mother makes a lemon cake which I absolutely adore and ask for every time she bothers to consult me on what I want for my birthday.. Its the hubby that likes cheesecake.. not me. Sigh.

Anyway.. after that, and old friend and his new woman stopped by. Ken I met in high school, and his new woman.. for over a year now. Im not all that fond of her, but it is only because she's a know it all type of personality. No matter what the subject, she seems to have some area of expertise on them. We talked about my foster kittens. She tried to tell me that one of the new ones had mites cause he scratched at his ear. and she also knew that they wouldn't be neutered till four months (no.. 2.5 lbs.. usually around nine weeks) and she KNEW the new kittens were eight weeks old.. (no.. they are only a pound.. they are probably four weeks.. if that) then there was the "if you play too rought with kittens it makes them mean adults". The time before that when she visited it was tidbits about the hamsters.. *rolls eyes*.. but anyway.. I try to look past that.. she makes Ken happy, and that's what matters.. :)

anyway.. he got me some nintendo controlers cause last time he was over I mentioned I owned gauntlet and the four way splitter for the game, but I only owned two controllers. So we played gauntlet for a couple of hours.. or should I say they did.. cause one of the controllers didn't work. Gauntlet tends to make me over react a little, and I didn't want someone just sitting around watching that.. lol. it was fun to watch them play, but she had never played before, and since it was regular nintendo, the graphics weren't all that clear, so we spent 28 levels listening to her say, what's that.. what's that.. what's that.. why did that open, I just touched it and it didn't.. (after we explained five times that closed chests needed a key).. I suppose I couldn't get ALL that agrevated at that cause it was a rather fast paced game.. but it still grated on me.

Just want to mention.. I have liked all of ken's other girlfriends..

Im going for a massage today. the hubby got me one as a birthday present.. its at 11 and with someone Ive never been to before. I can't wait.

Lastly.. Puff the kitten thinks he's human. he's not all that into kitten food, and has had a sample of, and liked tomato sause, broccoli and now cheese. I let the three of them out this morning for a little exercise before I go. Dini just jumped up here to cuddle. I love this kitten... can I keep him?

btw.. happy birthday to me

hey.. and guess what.. I share my day with Bruce Campbell!!!

from Iwon.com
Where do you stand on products (i.e. shampoo, cosmetics, deodorant) being tested on animals before being made available to the public?
40% I'm for it, if necessary
37% I'm against it
17% I'm not sure
4% I don't care

The next question was Where do you stand on medicine/drugs being tested on animals before being made available to the public? which 62% of the public was for that.

I have to say Im kinda appalled at that first statistic.. 40% of the american slice that visits Iwon.com thinks its ok to stick shampoo in some poor animals eyes. Now I'll admit, in the begining, it was kinda necessary cause we weren't sure what products did what when in contact with flesh.. but in this day and age, we know. we've done the tests.. there ain't no need to do it any freakin more people!! and if your going to play the whole 'advances in science card'.. its beauty products not medicines.. so no.. I am most definately opposed.

I forgot to mention yesterday that I went to the messy locker festivle on thursday. Its a cultural festivle that I can't spell, and sometimes can't pronounce, so i just call it the messy locker festivle. On the third thursday of june, they start, by having a block party, and setting off fireworks. we skipped the block party for the most part, but the fireworks were totally impressive. They spend an obscene amount of money on them and it lasted about an hour. Some of the firworks looked like flowers.. daisies, dandilions ,etc. they really liked to use the ones that gave the appearance of a starry night. There were some during the finale that lite up the night like day. And what a finale it was.. the noise almost knocked us over. We had walked down to where they were setting them off... so they were almost directly over head. and thanks to a nice breeze the smoke didn't ruin the show. Im very glad I went.

you know.. sometimes life around here is kinda weird. Driving around today I saw so many flags on people's windows.. you'd think it was the fourth of july already.. I drove by a cemetary too, and every stone had flowers or a flag. I thought i missed a whole week here.. :)

speaking of weird things.. my neighbor has a 'flower bed'.. yes.. an actual bed frame in his yard with flowers planted in between the head and foot board. This is also the neighbor who put a large stuffed tazmanian devil in a gocart with an american flag in his yard. Driving home from Kittery, I saw a flower boat. You know those wiskey barrels people use to 'tip over' and fill with flowers, well he did the same thing with a row boat..

I spent the day with the kittens. prin has come down with a cold.. had greenish yellow discharge from her eye and her nose. She HATES the medicine the shelter gave me for her... so I need to go out and get some more turkey baby food and hide it in there.. and hope she likes the turkey more than she hates the meds.. otherwise she is never going to get well.. unless ofcourse this stuff comes in pill form.. which I had a modicum of success with. I also got three more kittens. A black one (yes.. I'll call it midnight) a dalmation looking one (will have to work on a name for that one) and one with a stub of a tail, which Im going to call M.C.... for mini cadillac... cadillac was a cat that was at the shelter for a really long time and who just found a new home. There were a ton of adorable kittens at the shelter when I went in.. three red tigers.. and another set that were too old to be fostered, but who were a little feral. Its so easy to understand the distrust of the animals in the shelter when you realize for a couple days the only time they are handled is to be proded, or given meds.. You really have to admire the shelter for recognizing the fact that they need people to come in to just hold and cuddle the animals to remind them that all human touch isn't bad.

Its hot here today. 82. and humid. No air conditioner, no stairs in the pool.. and this house is an absolute sty... and the tivo remote is actually dead now. At least I have kitties to play with.

on a side note. the hubster is in major major trouble when he gets home. I don't know whats with him lately, he's been so self absorbed and so totally inconsiderate. Im sick of it.

I am a selective beanie baby collector. Its not really my fault... I was 'forced' into it by my sister, and two good friends. the thrill of the hunt will make you do crazy things. Anyway.. a few months ago, ty started retiring bears after a week or two... to try to drive the market probably. One of the first ones was nectar the hummingbird. It is one ugly beanie, so I never even tried nor did I know how rare it is. Its worth about $40 on ebay (when most beanies aren't worth the purchase price on ebay). I recently recieved notice that serenity the dove was retired. I went to look at it, and it was pretty. So I went to ebay to try to snag one cheeply, but I kept getting outbid. I went to my local beanie store, and low and behold, there were three!! I bought them all. *crosses fingers that they do go up in price*

The other week I was at the shelter, and went out the in door instead of the door I normally use. I forgot there was a step down, so I fell, and scraped my knee. My pants were unscuffed, and my hands were fine, so I didn't think about it, and drove home. My knee ached though. When I got home, I realized I had a decent scrape on my knee. Which gave me the shivers cause I hate knees. When I was nine, I was rollerskating at my aunts house, and fell down and really scraped up my knee in a pile of dirt and sand. I ended up having to have five stictches, and when the summer was almost over and they were about to take them out, the doctor couldn't find the last one, and had to reopen the wound to find it... so I could go swimming for the entire summer. ANYWAY, since then I have hated knees. Mine, yours, even saying the word too much... so Ive just covered this scrape with antibiotic cream and covered it with a bandaid. Ive recently started looking at it, and even picked off a few loose scabs believe it or not. I just realized yesterday that I actually scrapped my scar. Very freaky. I wonder if this will cause it to be less noticable. Now if I could only get the scar on the other leg to go away.. that one bugs me way more.

I went and saw scooby doo last night.. and all I have to say is if you like the cartoons, you have to go see it. Pretty well done. The whole daphnie going kungfu is explained very well. I don't want to spoil it for you if you are going to go see it, but I LOVED the whole ending thing.. too damn funny.

Thought I'd see if you've
heard if this: http://daisyman.arsware.org/dms/
In a nutshell, it's a program that, if not reset on a regular
basis, assumes you are dead. It then sends emails to loved
ones and deletes files, or encrypts files to prevent
embarrassment.

Im up early again today.. Im getting sick of this not sleeping thing. I'll have to go give it another shot in a few. or maybe I'll force myself to exercise first Still haven't seen scooby.. maybe I'll see if we can't convince the 'rents and the nephew if they want to go.. He's four and a half.. he should be into scooby right? Man I can't believe its june. It feels like April.... although I think Im ready to be *shiver* 31. Last year I so wanted to demand a recount. Some how Im about a year behind where I should be. although It now looks like Im about two or three months... lol.. time is such a funny thing.

Well, my Em is doing well. Her dandruff is just about gone. She loves her new food, which is probably cause it costs seven times more than regular food. Just found that out when I went and got her more. She's up to six units of insulin and its amazing how big she is after spending an afternoon in the kitten room. Speaking of the kittens... we went out shopping yesterday in some pet stores to compair prices of kitten food... and saw the cutest thing what you can't see in that picture very well is that the fabric is a tapistry of cats. Although it's fifty dollars. When I got home last night I found one on ebay for $15.00 Im going to bid on it

I spent the day with the kittens finishing the book I borrowed from the library Anonomous Rex which was pretty good. Seems there is a prequel.. Will have to look into reading that too. Every time I walked out of the kitten room though, Puff or houdini would sit and cry. They didn't really interact with me when I was in there, they just didn't want me to not be there. Houdini is a total cuddle bug. I love it. He just lays in and around my neck and purrs so loudly. Im hoping he'll rub off on puff and prin, but they are still a little aloof, and skittish... specially when I let them out of their room. They are eating fools though.. growing like weeds. I bought some turkey baby food cause I didn't think puff was all that interested in food and I wanted to spoil him a little.. well that stuff is better than nip ever was for tigger.. fights broke out. growling was growled. and there was turkey remnants all over the floor and all over puff. I swear baby food is designed to get on EVERYTHING.. :)

Well, since its father's day, my plans for today are to go visit him, work out, nap, shower, and go to the movies... not necessarily in that order.

*yawn* man its early.. I have no idea why I am up this early.. The only thing I have on my to-do list is to read the book I borrowed from the library, and sit in the kitten room and let them crawl all over me. Ok.. I have some exercise on that schedual and a shower too... but nothing requiring me to get up this early...Em is happy Im up thought. Man I love that cat. Since we upped her insulin, she's been a bit more active. She's still a log in pretty much every single way, but more often that log is rolling its way over to me and looking to be hugged.. :)

Ollie is having problems going to the bathroom... he keeps getting his poop in his fur.. I don't think its cause he has problems.. but because he has way too much freakin fur.. :) I combed him the other day.. boy did he hate that.. I should just get a pair of scissors and trim him back there..

the kittens are good. they were sooo determined to get out of the kitten room, that I let them, and they didn't know what to do once they got into the hall. It was cute. Eventually they ended up running around the house and playing with ollie's scratching post. Unfortunately they didn't know it was a scratching post, and thought the couch and chair were.. well at least they have an idea of what the word no is all about now.

I ditched going to the shelter yesterday. I went tuesday and wednesday. Id go daily if it weren't so freakin far away.. its 20 miles each way.. which was ok when I was getting paid, but now that Im not, it bugs me. I have no idea why. Im fortunate enough to have the money..

So far I have no plans for the weekend.. I really want to go out with some friends and go out to dinner, then to a movie (scooby?).. I doubt its going to happen though since I thought about it last night. Making last minute plans never works since most of our friends have kids.

I finally saw the movie "the crow" yesterday. Was pretty good. I had been watching the series, so Id pretty much seen everything in it save for the scarey bad dude and his 'sister'. which on a side note remind me of two people I met on the internet a while back..

I had put off seeing it cause a friend of mine promised me he was going to take me to see it. A year or so later, he told me he already saw it. Was a little crushed, but I quickly got over it. I don't know why I haven't seen it up to now.. guess I just never went over to the used section of the video store, then it wasn't on cable. Found it the other night when I was going through all the movies playing on my digital cable system for then next two weeks.. man you have sooo got to love tivo. I searched through movies by title.. Found a few things on that I have really wanted to see. so I told the tivo to record it.. and poof.. there it was. yes.. its an expensive toy to set up, but soooo totally worth it to no end.. :)

Em is being friendly today.. I love it when she gets in these moods, but I end up with cat hair up my nose.. :)

had my annual today.. man I totally HATE those exames.. I have to say though the most undignified part of the whole thing was the peeing in the cup. *rolls eyes* But, i am healthy for another year.. or so they say.. who are 'they' anyway?? oh yea.. my doctor..

Its raining again today. Its not bad either. Still a little cold, but not so icy that you feel chilled to your bones when you come inside. I went to the shelter today to help out. They were having staff day today, so Nancy included me and bought me a sandwich. Hummas and roasted red peppers w tomatos shredded carrots and sprouts. I had them put onions on it as well. (in a wrap) Was pretty good, but I had a feeling I would have liked a different sandwich better.. it had fetta cheese in it. But.. I took my chances, and this one was pretty good too... (are you bored yet?.. lol.. Im so rambling here aren't I?)

I got up kinda early this morning... So im a little tired. Just got back from grocery shopping.. wanted to pick up a few things for the supper I want to make.. ended up with 80$ worth of food. How DO I do that??

Well.. there is food to be cooked, and kittens to be cuddled.. so I'll end my little ol raving rant here..
toodles

"In my opinion, we don't devote nearly enough scientific
research to finding a cure for jerks." --Calvin and Hobbes

I was listening to talk radio the other day.. and there was a guy on there from the extreme right wing, saying we should deport everyone who is an arabic male between the ages of 15-50 who are here on visas or by other means, and we shouldn't let them back in the country. He then went on to say that he does accept that there may be a legitimate reason for these men to be in the country for business.. so his solution to that is to grant them a visa, and to have them file an itenerary with the goverment, and give them a swipe card, and everywhere they go they would have to show that card, and if they fail to show up for an appointment they would immediately be deported..

ok.. does this guy scare you as much as he scares me? I was absolutely floored at this. I can't believe he'd want to live in a society that would police a group of people like that. I know I don't. Then I heard that the FBI, or was it the CIA are opening their restrictions on spying... which while I agree with the decisions of being able to read websites, and go into churches, It really feels like they are one step away from crossing that line that again scares me.

Then there was the whole thing with P. Bush wanting to create a new cabnet level position for homeland security.. Ok.. Im just going to say right now that P. Bush just scares me in general..so Im just going to leave that at that.

I live in the US of A. I do not want the goverment looking over my shoulder - or yours -at every turn. To take note of all we do and create a little file if they feel the need. No, Im not hiding anything. No I have no plans to do anything that would cause the govt to pay attention to me, In theory I should be welcoming this kind of scrutiony under the guise of protecting my fellow americans... but this is a slipery slope. and yes.. to the absurd, what if the govt decides one day that people who like cheese are communists.. and need to be monitored.. You laugh, but look at our history. Look at what they did to the japanese americans after pearl harbor. Look what they did during the mccarthy hearings. If I had asked you what you thought of those things on september 10th last year, you would admit they were low points in american history. I don't think the american people should stand for anyone stepping on their civil rights. Spying is a necessary part of security I can admit that, but there are acceptable limits to that, and we shouldn't stand for it when people cross those lines. Spying just to spy to monitor and pass moral or ethical judgements on others is just wrong.. and I so fear that if the public is not vigilant we could all too easily end up where the USSR was (and possibly still is for all I know) where people were being jailed on suspicion alone.

Brought some of my stuff down to a friends house for a little yard sale.. made about $60.00 Sat on the outskirts of the sun most of the day.. and I wore a long sleeve shirt and pants.. but the tops of my hands got burnt.. and I am so freakin cold it isn't funny.. I feel like I am burnt to a crisp. I got a cute pair of earrings a new thumb ring, and a basket of kittens pin. Also stopped at another yard sale on the way home and got a really cool coffee decanter/warmer from goodness knows when.. its glass triangled shaped, and has gold diamond shapes on it. It has its own stand that has a place to put a gel pack to light to keep it warm. Yes.. I know I don't drink coffee.. but it was just so cool looking, and it was only a quarter.

went to BK afterwards and had one of those back yard burgers.. The bun was yummy.. that's the nicest thing I have to say about that. The patties were too small and dry. there was no condements on it even though there was supposed to be, and the lettuce was almost hot. and there was no cheese. :(

Prin is looking great, puff is starting to have runny poops.. and I think Houdini is sick too.. Sigh.. probably a reaction to the med I had to give them. Giving a pill to a kitten isn't an easy task, but at least it isn't as hard as it is to give it to a full grown cat.

Do not fret because of evildoers, Nor be envious
of the workers of iniquity. For they shall soon be
cut down like the grass, And wither as the green herb.

Trust in the Lord, and do good; Dwell in the land, and
feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the
Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He
shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your
righteousness as the light, And your justice as the
noonday.

Psalm 37:1-6

today was THE day..
every year, the leaves fall off the trees.. the snow comes.. then spring comes and the trees all bud again.. and the leaves come out.. and the rains come, and make everything LUSH.. Im not talking just plain ol green.. Im talking comparable with velvet lush It usually happens early in the spring.. it was a little late this year.. but it always is a treat..

I just got a call from the shelter. They had to put rajah to sleep.
i know animals don't have a soul, but I so hope kitties do go to heaven..
I can't imagine heaven with out them..

can someone tell me why my gas warning light comes on before my gas gauge even gets to the red zone? Talk about useless..
Prin ate her little heart out this morning. Her tummy was nice and rounded.. I was so proud.
Em is being a little clingy.. its nice
I slept till noon this morning.. that was nice too.
Its raining.. I like it.. although it will make it hard to put out the cardboard for tomorrow to be recycled. I so want to get that out of the house.. its been here WAY too long.
My library books are due back tomorrow, and I haven't read two of them... so Im going to go back to bed and chug through one today.. the other one couldn't keep my interest anyway..
Im upset with my mother and my sister right now. I made plans with my sister for father's day. We needed to include my mother in them. This weekend my sister came to town to visit, talked to my mother about it. They changed the plans all around, and didn't bother to tell me about it. I emailed my mother to discuss the plans, and that's when I found out about it..

but.. the best news of all is that my wandering tivo has returned!! yea!! *pauses the tv just for the fun of it* Of course this now means I have to reprogram it to record all my favorite shows.. but ITS HERE!! *happy dance*

well with all the termoil in my life right now.. I have totally forgotten and missed my best friend's birthday.
I am slime
I am scum.
I am excuseless.

I soo need to set up one of those email reminders for all these things cause apparently my memory can not be trusted.

Im so sorry T.

There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone, and some remain --
All these places have their moments,
With lovers and friends I still can recall --
Some are dead and some are living.
In my life, I've loved them all.
But of all these friends and lovers,
There is no one compares with you,
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new.
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before --
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more.

"In My Life"
by the Beatles:

*puts a box of tissues on the table*

well.. rajah is at the vet. The shelter was concerned and sent her to the vet, I took her. She had a temp of 104.. (normal is 102) was dehydrated, and her front paw was swollen and she's still not walking. They think it might be distemper.. and if it is, there is nothing they can do for her. They are going to keep her overnight and hydrate her and see.. (probably run a test or two as well I would think) There is a chance that if it is distemper, that it could affect the other kittens I have..

If you could send good vibes (and prayers) her way, Id ever so appreciate it.

*grabs a tissue*

Since her bath, Prin is showing interest in eating, but isn't doing much more than taking a nibble. Will have to give her another bath. Bruce called at 5pm and said the stool sample was fine. He recommended more strongent.. but I think im going to wait a day or two before I give her any more, cause he mentioned she might be having a reaction to it. Rajah wont put any weight on either her back leg, nor the front leg on the same side. If she's not better tomorrow, Im going to bring her to the shelter with me.

Houdini

prin update.. she escaped her box. That is one tenatious kitten. She went poopie in her mini litterbox, and it was quite watery with some chunks.. probably from the left over food in her system. so I gave her some more KMR and put her back in the box for a while longer. I want to keep her separated to keep an eye on her output.

Rajah is still wont put any weight on her rear leg... but then its only been an hour or two since I found out she had this problem. Im sure in a day or so she'll be fine. I tried to feel around while she was asleep, nothing seemed to wake her.. so I don't think its bad.. but I'll probably bring her back on tuesday if it doesn't get better.. Bruce was supposed to call with the results of the stool testing on prin, but that didn't happen. Houdini.. man.. talk about a needy cat. You walk in there and he starts screaming.. and he so totally looks posessed when he does. Puff is just timid now.. a few more days and Im sure she'll be demanding attention too.

Yes.. Im a little one tracked right now.. forgive me.

:) Im watching animal rescuses on NBC at the moment.. they were showing a mother duck and her ducklings, and how they were moving them to an area that was going to be safe for them. They had the ducklings in a box. The last duckling, the guy took out of the box and tossed lightly (like you might toss bread to ducks in front of you) into the water. then the little duck started swimming to mom and the siblings. It was VERY cute. Reminded me of the other day when I was taking my foster kittens back to the shelter, and I saw a mom duck and her duckies trying to cross the road. They were in a really bad spot in the middle of a blind hill where the speed limit was 45mph. So I turned around. Parked the car on the side of the road, and tried to hurry the duckies along. Mom then squatted in the middle of the road. I started screaming at her.. ok well talking strongly anyway.. telling her that that particular spot was NOT a good idea to take a nap. A car sped by going the other way, so I got a little closer to them, and she stood up again and started waddling to the other side.. A HUGE construction truck started barrling down on me and the duckies.. but me he saw, and slowed down. a car came up the other way.. and I waved my hands to get her to slow down while I urged the ducks off teh side of the road. I followed them off the side of the road to make sure they wouldn't turn around and change their minds.

I love ducklings.. they are WAY too cute.

a really cute kitten page
Ok, this is a riot.. and wil wheaton actually commented.. lol

Grace at the shelter thinks Prin looks healthy just underweight. She gave me some KMR to feed her. Prin took a couple of laps of it while we were there.. so I took her home, and gave her some and she wasn't interested. So i put some in a suringe, and squirted it into her mouth. She didn't like it when I did it with the water, but the KMR was ok. She wasn't thrilled about it, but she ate it!!! yea!! I gave her maybe four or five cc's, and now she's sleeping off her ordeal in a box in the livingroom while the kitten room is airing out. She threw up all morning, and the room smelled so much like dead fish it wasn't funny.. (you do know I hate fish don't you) she also did a bit of grooming when I put her in the box.. *VBG*

Prin

Im taking Prin to the shelter today. She wont eat, her stomach is pathetically empty, and her poop the other day had some pinkish/redish mucus on it. :( I need to call them to make sure they are there. Sigh..

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I went to the interview. It was fun.. surprisingly. All the others have been like having teeth pulled. Its for an upscale furniture company, and if employeed, I would get to purchase anything there at cost. That would be nice. Two weeks vacation, 8 holidays, 5 personal days, profit sharing, 401k sounds pretty cool. The women there all seemed really nice too. I could suffer through working there.. even though its in the middle of nowhere's ville, and it would be a bit of a commute.. and I would have to give up my unemployement checks.. which I fully enjoy getting knowing my former employer has to pay ... :P@them.

Driving home I hit each and every single red light. can we say frustrating? I finally got home and decided to clean out my car.. as it is a convertable, and I was uncomfortable putting the top down yesterday as I was afraid things were going to fly out of it. had about fifty cents worth of bottles in there.. lol

Went into the kitten room. Princess (or angel or what ever other name I come up for the scrawny gray tiger cat) was awake.. and she attached herself to my ankle which was incredibly sweet, but made it a bit frustrating as well, since houdini (the all gray cat) and rajah (the little black one) both NEED to be held and patted and neither one of them like each other.. nor does rajah like anyone else.

Last night I picked up rajah and brought her into the bedroom and cuddled her for a while. For about a minute she tried to get down and explore, but when she realized that wasn't going to happen, she settled down and fell asleep on my chest. sometimes using my boobs as a pillow, sometimes having her head falling off the side of my rib cage. at one point I moved her butt, and it ended up facing to the left while her head was facing to the right. she is SUCH a ragdoll kitten.. it isn't even funny. ok, so its totally funny. All night I was gushing about how much I love that.. and when she started to purr the hubster thought I was going to say I wanted to keep her. Sigh. I do, but I can't since she doesn't like other cats. She growled at ollie.. and so ollie hissed back.. and that was kinda scarey. I am never afraid of em when she hisses. but ollie.. man.. watch out. I tried to decided if ollie knew that rajah wasn't recees since save for the face and the paws (ok and the white belly) they have the same coloring.

At three am, I awoke to kitten cries.. they were horribly insistant, so I got up and went into the kitten room for a while. again with the whole houdini and rajah thing.. and princess was up and about.. which was good. They had made a mess of their water bowl, and the scraps of wet food from this afternoon were all dried up, so I took princess and the water bowl and the food plate out of the room. this is NOT as easy as you might think. remember, rajah and houdini were there.. I ended up dropping the spoon on the floor, which frightened them enough so I could sneek out. Once in the kitchen, I proceeded to give princess a bit more tuna, which is what I got her to first eat this morning (*YEA!*). When I called the shelter for their recommendations, they said to try some tuna or some boiled ham. well when I opened the can of tuna this morning and tried to give her some on a plate, she was totally uninterested, till she saw the can.. which she ran right over to and started eating out of.. lol. Well last night the tuna wasn't all that appealing.. so I took a bit and put it in the microwave to warm it up so it would smell better. well it was a bit too warm, so I tried to add a little of the cold stuff, but I really couldn't cause prin was already into it trying to eat. I watched her eat a bit.. but then had to distract my own two cats who were pissed that it was morning (it was now 4am.. but since they can't tell time, I'll just let that one go) and that I wasn't feeding them. So I ran over to the other side of the kitchen and fed them some wet food (they are normally fed dry) and while I was doing that, prin jumped down off the counter.. which scared me silly, cause it is a long jump and she is an obnoxiously scrawny cat. But she was fine.. and by the time I got there, Ollie had gotten there too.. *rolls eyes* Im trying not to let ollie interact with these kittens.. specially prin since she had ear mites. Anyway.. I grabbed prin and put her back on the counter to which I could see ollie thinking, well if she can be on the counter, well then so can I!. I just rolled my eyes, and put some more wet food on prin's plate, and tried to bring prin, the water, and the food back into the kitten room (Did I mention it was 4am... yes.. I was not thinking straight). The second I opened the door rajah and houdini went running. For some reason they want to explore the house despite there being a huge kitty gaurding the hallway. I tried to keep them in the room with my foot while I juggled the food the water and prin into one hand. I finally was able to bend down and grab one, and put it back into the room.. and went to grab the other and put that back in the room, then grabbed the first one again and put that back in the room, then grabbed the second and put her back in the room. Slowly moving into the room at the time, I was able to get everyone into the room, but not before I got wet cat food juices all down the front of my jammies. I put rajah in her box.. (she has a banana box with some towels in it that uses to she hide from the rest of the kitties) and houdini and puff (puffnstuff the other gray tiger) started nibbling on the food, and prin again attached herself to my ankles. I felt horrible for leaving her in there, but I so had to get back to bed. So I ran out of the room... and then proceeded to wake up the hubster with the proclamation that we will NEVER have children.. :)

Today Im on my own as he is out of town. Em and I are having some bonding moments. but I need to get dressed and go check on the kittens.. I also need to go into town and get them some kitten food they like. The shelter is so totally into iams kitten food.. but I haven't had a kitten yet who liked it... and I really need to find some food that prin will like, cause I doubt that tuna has all the nutriants she needs. and it is a beautiful spring/summer day here.. and my car is cleaned out..

but to tell you the truth.. im kinda scared to open that kitten door.. ;)
*tries to talk self into exercising first*
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