Yesterday I planned to spend the day away from the media and to spend a little money to help the economy. Driving into town I saw that the school my mother works at had a fire truck, an ambulance and a police car in front of it, so I thought Id stop by my parents (who live in town) and see if dad knew what was going on. He didn't. We sat and talked for a while. He was having problems connecting to the internet, so I went to go look. I removed his dial up adapter thinking it might be corrupt, and I couldn't get it reinstalled.(there was no adaptor option it was weird.. but then his computer is wonky at the moment and has needed to be reformated for a while so it wasn't my fault) so I left him to save the things he wanted on the machine and went shopping. I didn't get a few things I wanted cause I couldn't find them. I came home and reformated the other system in the house and fixed up mine to be formated (yes.. Im delaying that.. I don't know why.. I should just do it) and then went over to format his and I took jack with me.. but mom had come home and gotten the disk for her new internet service and gotten it installed and connected (after talking to tech support). Not sure how they did it.. but hey.. good for them. Mom also wanted to give me the quilt I must admit its a nice piece of work, but I have no idea what to do with it. I LIVE in my bed. My current quilt has stains and pulls and my cats sleep on it and it spends time on the floor. it gets quite abused. Mom would hate it if I used it in that fashion. I don't have a spare bed. I don't like the pattern enough to use it as a wall hanging, and frankly there really isn't enough room in my house to just stick it somewhere.. sigh.

Got home from the 'rents house and on the way I realized the power was out. I was hoping it hadn't affected out house cause we are on a different line from the route we took home, but apparently that has changed. No power.. but ofcourse you reach for the lightswitch anyway as you walk through the door.. Jack was glad to be home.. he's starting to not like traveling.. :( I so want a kitty who travels. oh well I read my homework by candlelight, and then read the first chapter of my dust book. When I gave up jack came up and started sucking on my ear and cuddling. One great thing about him is once you get him attached to your ear, you can pretty much move as you want to and he'll stay right where he is. My other kitties.. once you start moving they are out of there. So I got comfy, and tried to fall asleep. I wondered about the day.. I was able to stay away from the media all day.. still haven't seen any news at this point so I have no idea if anything happened. but anyway.. at the time, I was laying around in the dark, after having two huge planes take off and fly over our house (we are in a rarely used flight path.. and these planes were LOUD) cuddled up in bed, with my bear and my cat and my big soft pillows wondering what the end of the world would be like. I sent up a little prayer that the end of the world wouldn't be so confusing. I got a mental image then that gave the impression that the end of the world is going to be VERY VERY confusing.. and that's kind of the point. I took a bit of comfort in that, cause the world isn't that confusing now.

I need to get out of the house today. Go to the shelter, go to the clinic where I interviewed a while back. Apparently I lost my sapphire bracelet there during my interview. This really surprises me since I LOVE that thing.. and not only did I loose it, but I had no idea I lost it till the vet told me when I saw her during the rabies clinic I was able to help out at last week. Oh well. So.. Im off like a herd of turtles.. *settles back and finishes watching buffy and wonders if I should format my system before I go or when I get back.. votes for when I get back.. after I exercise*

the quilt..

For those of you that don't know this story.. sit right back and you'll hear a tale, a tale of a fateful trip, that started out as what seemed like a good idea at the time. A number of years ago my mother got into quilting. Why? who knows. She's always sewen when we were kids (yes, I have school pictures as proof) but I think it has more to do with a few women she works with starting up a quilting club and she didn't want to be left out. she made a quilt for herself. She made a memory quilt for my sister (blocks that represent moments in her life.. mom is currently working on a block that could look like her new house if you can imagine that sort of thing.. she's not all that good at creating small details with fabric) Anyway.. next it was my turn.. *insert scarey music here*

Mom invited me out to pick out fabric colors. No idea why she invited me, she didn't listen to a single thing I said. the fabrics I liked were "all wrong" for quilting.. Didn't matter that i liked them. Then the ones that were appropriate weren't 'good colors'. It wasn't a fun experience.. but I did get colors I could live with (mustard, emerald green and purple) Anyway.. she then invited me over to the house to pick out a pattern. I walked in the door and she showed me a sampler quilt pattern. I didn't like it, and looked through the pattern books. I found one I really liked, and she found everything wrong with it. it was for a wall hanging quilt so the square wasn't the right size. So once again, it was what she wanted dressed up to make her feel like she actually took my feelings into consideration. This is a habit with my mother.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)

"I Hope You Dance" LEE ANN WOMACK LYRICS

*cuddles up in chair noshing on a "pumpkin flip* Yup.. its fall.. pumpkin flips are out.. I LOVE these things.. they are from little debbie.. she makes an apple flip too, but the pumpkin flip has "eyes" they are cute, and yummy and I love 'em.

I went to work out before I went to class yesterday. I had to take a shower at the gym.. I hate the showers at the gym.. the class was interesting. My professor dressed completely (and I mean completely except his shoes) in baby blue.. his socks were baby blue for goodness sakes. He is also the father of a girl I went to school with. There are four speaches through out the class. I am kinda surprised, I thought there would be more in the public speaking class.. but hey.. that's fine. Im thinking of doing my informative speach on the web.. not sure if its going to be 'why you need a personal website" or "why you should be blogging" or maybe "how to build a website" although that might take more than the four to six minutes I have. I got an email a few minutes ago regarding a quiz I have to take for my saturday internet class.. its due on thursday.. eeek.. I haven't read the material nor do I have excell installed on my system.. *shiver* I hate being this unprepaired.. but its so hot.. I really don't want to do it today..

lets see.. what else is new.. well the gym is getting new flooring in the weight area, so I can't work out today (which I never do) or tomorrow (which is a regular day) Im glad they are changing it. I hope the lack of the cleaning of that room has everything to do with their getting new flooring, cause its been kinda bad. Well not on a surface level, but in front of one of the machines has been a white cat wisker for about three weeks now, and there has been a broken hair clip near another machine for two weeks, and a left over bottle of water in a window for about that long... not to mention a few tracking cards being left around and no one picking them up.

Its hot and humid here.. 90's for the past couple of days.. Its going to be cooler and rainy tomorrow. Im glad.

On a sad note, I "killed" a plant I bought while my father was in the hospital. I over watered it, and didn't realize till it started turning all brown. it had been underwatered for most of its life, so I guess it really couldn't handle it. Surprisingly though it sprouted a few flowers. Im hoping against hope that it comes back to life.. there are three separate plants in the pot, so hopefully one of them will make it. Its looking at the moment like two of them will (the two that sprouted flowers). *crosses fingers*

I updated myfosterkitten website.put the seventh set on there. My sixth set is almost big enough to go back. Eddie currently is.. Charlie is the smallest at only 2lbs. I think Im going to keep them all till they are all of size, cause they really like each other, and it will be less tramatizing for them. When I brought smedley back, he looked so confused and lost..

well.. Im going to make a todo list so I get a few things done.. 1) reformat computer 2) go spend money on wednesday 3) do homework 4) do quiz not necessarily in that order. but of course, right now, Im going to go off and play on line a little bit more.