Jesus speaking:

"...And if anyone hears My words and does
not believe, I do not judge him; for I did
not come to judge the world but to save
the world.

He who rejects Me, and does not receive My
words, has that which judges him--the word
that I have spoken will judge him in the
last day.

John 12:47-48

Lets see.. Monday I cleaned. Tuesday I went to the shelter and cleaned, Wednesday I cleaned.. Cleaned out the kitten room.. it looks all nice and tidy now. I still have a box of crap to go through, but the room is clean so I can get more kittens now *cheezy grin* Also had that kitty incident on wednesday. today I went to the shelter again and to a baby shower for a coworker. Tomorrow Im going to go through that box, write up some thank you cards for the shelter.. there is about 60 of them. They like to have their cards hand written for people who walk in with donations and then we are going out tomorrow evening. Ive said this more than once, but man if I had a job, Id never get anything done. I guess I spent a lot of time putting things off, which is why I have such a long list of stuff I want to get done now. I also have a stack of magazines to go through and read.

I think when I get through my list, Im going to get a better background for this blog. Maybe something along the lines of a tahiti shore line.. :)

well I figured out why my clock was always an hour behind.. because for some reason the time zone was set to central, and it kept synchronizing with time-nw.nist.gov. Well.. mystery solved, computer better, and saved from being thrown out the window. Went to the shelter today.. they sent me home with "home work". She also told me that Im going to get "my own" computer there, so I can work on the database.. ooh goodie *rolls eyes*. Hey.. more experience the better.

Im most likely going to be selling off some of my beanies in the next few weeks, to raise some money for the shelter. They have been really really good to me... not that I haven't been really good to them too, but I feel I want to do this.

superbowl commercials I liked
the zebra budwiser one
the clown budwiser
the yo one
the drug one in the subway
gilligan's mlife
brad/alex

ones that I didn't like
the michael jordan one
the levis / buffelo one
ozzy
bud / mom & daughter
cadillac
the promo for 'are you hot'
fletcher and son / terry tate
bud / third arm
espn / without sports there would be no new year
michalobe ultra "drinking will make you thin"
bud yoga

friday night I went to my sister's house. My mother said she was going friday night cause saturday was my nephew's birthday party, and she wasn't interested in being there with a lot of little kids (he's five now) We called my parents before we went up, and they weren't home, so off we went.. we got there, and there was no car in the driveway, and the lights seemed to be off, like no one was home. We rang the bell anyway.. my sister "lives" in her den, which is the back of the house. She and the boy were home, the hubby was off shopping. We sat and visited for a while. We worked on the goodie bags and what not for the party. she was going to do the pop the balloon and get a prize game. So we were stuffing candy in balloons and we blew up a few, when her hubby remarked that they would have deflated by tomorrow, so I untied those that I could, but there was one I couldn't. We left that one and went into the kitchen to look at the pinata. Well the cat got up on the sofa and had a look at the balloon and some how ended up popping it. Surprisingly she sat right there for a while, looking a little stunned, but that was about it. Although later in the evening when we were sitting on the couch, the cat looked up at us with a leary look in her eyes :) We got to play hot wheels, and be privy to underwear boy. My parents never came up, although apparently they had called and told my BIL that they weren't coming up that night... which confused him cause he wasn't aware they were coming.

Saturday we went down to MA to visit Ken. It was a bit of a haul, but it wasn't bad. Found his place rather well. We had been there once before, but it was two years before. I was still thinking he was living in his last appartment. We went out for lunch/dinner. had chinese food. it was so so. went then to jordan's furniture. They have an imax there. Its quite an experience. It was amazing the number of kids who were at the furniture store. apparently they have an animatronic show. we stayed around for it. it was quite "impressive". took up the whole floor area. was a madi gras theme. You get beads as you walk in the door. They really know how to get people in the door.. I must say. They also have a full serve resteraunt backed up to it as well. Its Kelly's.. which is an irish roast beef place. just slightly higher scale than say ... arbys..

we then went out for desert to this place that makes a chocolate truffle cake. Ken raved about it. We walked in the door at 5:30, and there was a half hour wait. I suggested the bar, and we went right in, and ordered. It was good, but dark chocolate, and extremely rich. Im not going to complain about it :) but Im not about to rush out and get another one any time soon.

We went back to his place and watched a movie.. Memento. One freaky movie. When the movie was done, you are left with a ton of questions. Ken has seen it three times now and he still didn't see things I did, and had major questions. If you like funky movies, Id recommend it. The time line runs backwards. basically you start at 18 and you watch 18, 19 and 20. then the next scene would be 16. then you watch 16,17 and the start of 18. and so on and so on..

My father's birthday present arrived on friday. I ordered him a NY cheesecake I also got him some aftershave (old spice) and some altoids. The cheesecake is a big hit. Juniors makes a very good cheesecake. I got him the sampler pack. So we went over today and gave that to him, and partook of it. Also fixed his computer once again. Man Id give anything to know how he does these things sometimes. We visited for a while, then went grocery shopping for some goodies to munch on while we watch the super bowl. In general Im morally opposed to football (long story) but I love the comercials, and I don't mind the game (I know how its played thanks to four years in the band.. we put on a field show during half time so we went to all the games). So we usually make a big deal out of it. This year though we really couldn't settle on any plans.. that and I really like staying home now a days (thanks to the kitties) and we haven't been home all weekend.. so we are watching it here. so we needed munchies. and of course we ended up spending $50!! *rolls eyes* I made a tex mex type of casserole. I saw them make it on the today show the other day, and they swore it was going to be on their website, but it wasn't.. so I kinda faked it. Hope it comes out ok.. I suppose if it doesn't, we have plenty of other food here, including left over chinese..

Tomorrow I need to go out and run some errands.. also need to pick up that kitten room. Tuesday Im at the shelter. Im also going to take my dad out to lunch probably one day this week... birthday lunch :) he also wants some help getting his computer set up to do what he wants it to do with regards to his checking account.. so I might get over there to do that too.

Man.. If I had a job, Id never have a minute to breath..

I'm sorry.
I'll be good.
This time I promise,
Love is more important than sex.
Now I understand.
I have 2 go now.
I don't know when I'll return.
Good-bye

I woke up so cold this morning. I HATE when that happens. Not sure why it does, but it usually happens a few days in a row.. sigh. Cause Im under the covers .. and I just can't get warm.. Im all shivery and miserable.. I cuddle deeper into the covers and eventually I warm up, but them Im so warm Im sweating, and I don't want to get out from the covers cause I know I'll be cold again. *sigh* Don't you just love these little insites into my life?

I didn't go to the shelter again today.. *slaps hand* bad girl. Im still not right physically, and I really just want to go take a nap. I have been exercising through out this cold (well except for the first two days) and for some reason today was the hardest.. actually had to stop half way through. but hey.. at least I got through it.. *pats back*

well.. I should go take a shower, have some lunch, take a nap..

why is it my computer gets 1hour behind the current time. If I leave my computer running - which I do - *looks at clock* ARRGH! its STILL an hour behind. I rebooted and everything. *resets clock* if this stupid thing looses time again Im going to have to "have a talk" with it.. *sticks tongue out at computer*

Well.. my domain is up and moved. $15 a year 100mb of space 4gb of data transfer.. I couldn't be happier.. although I have to wait for my domain name to propergate through the servers, but in about 72 hours I should be all set. Im moving the kitty blog back..
its hosted at dr2.net if your interested.. the uptime seems to be great as well

Went to the dentist today.. clean bill of health. Although they gave me the whole "floss more" speach. yea yea yea.. Went shopping afterwards. Got a few beanies, a carmel apple candle, a couple of cat toys, a cute greeting sign made of wood with kitties on them. about half way through my shopping, I got a major bout of nausia. I kept mentally yelling at myself not to throw up. I walked into a craft store, and the smell of potpourri was overwhelming.. I had to leave immediately for fear of throwing up all over the cute teddies and other crafts. I have no idea where it came from, unless it was a reaction to the polish they used on my teeth.. which doesn't quite make sence since it had been half an hour before.. but whatever. got some pork and some nice meat rub and had that for dinner.

Ive taken up reading again. I like reading. finished a book in a day.. started up another today, and Im only on chapter 2 and it seems quite intersting. its a 'girlie' book.. Ive never been too into those.. but hey.. my mother gave it to me, so I thought Id pick it up and give it a chance :)

just so you know.. breathing is highly under rated.
I want you to take a nice deep breath. Could you do it through both of your nostrils, and not end up coughing?
consider yourself to be having a pretty good day.

man.. i haven't blogged all week. Guess that is what new kitties will do to you :)
Actually, tuesday I cleaned the house. Wednesday I went shopping, thursday I went to the shelter and got sick, friday I was sick, and today I am sick. I have the head cold from hell. It is so bad that when I went to the doc on friday for my depo shot, I asked her to look at me, and she gave me a strep test, which was negitive. Ive just been laying in bed.. and the sad thing is if I do that for too long I start getting leg cramps and a pain in my chest, so I have to get up.. so I come and sit in the chair, cause when I stand up I get major head rushes... so much so it affects my vision. Its not pretty. I also can't taste a darn thing. Well.. I have hints of taste.. which I have to say, loosing your sence of taste really bites. Almost as much as rudolph nose.

'rents are back from Florida. They say they want to move there. I say more power to them. Can you tell they are not my favorite people in the world right now. I wonder if that will ever change. I hated them growing up. I was starting to be able to stand them, now Im back to not liking them very much. btw.. they aren't serious about moving. Although in a few more years they might join the snowbirds.. (there is a large population of older folks that summer here, and winter in Florida)

We are going to visit them tomorrow. They actually invited us over for dinner. Pot roast. They probably brought us back something.. which will never go with my decor or lifestyle, but whatever.. It is the thought that counts.... right?

I suppose I really should get over my bitterness, but right now, Im too sick to make that kind of change.

I watched the episode of trading spaces that had the live reveal. Must say, I HATED the living room that hildi did. Infact I dislike most rooms hildi does. that flower bathroom really bit the big one. The red in the cabinets was ok, but the flowers? come on. How on earth are they going to keep that clean? Back to the live reveal though.. I must say that was a bit of a let down. Looked just like all the others except Paige got a little overly excited.

*yawn* well I suppose.. it is midnight after all.

Went to the family party on saturday. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. It was at my cousin sheila's house. She is a few years older than my older sister (who's three years older than me) and somehow she ended up marrying a guy I went to school with (well he's a year older than I am) kinda freaky situation for me.. but not so much, if you know what I mean. Anyway. He's in construction, and built himself a HUGE house. I hadn't seen it till saturday. It was very nice. They had been in there a year though, and there were still very obvious unfinished parts. They also did a painting technique in their family room that was an off white wall, with almost a blood red ragged on. it looked.. well you can imagine. I got six ceramic pop over cups. Hubby got a star trek book and a walmart calendar. stood around for a while listening to a potty training discussion.. surprisingly I was able to add to the conversation. Had another conversation with my cousin sue, who is quite a bit older than I am. She commented that she thought I looked nice, and possibly lost weight. I wasn't sure about the weight part, and thanked her for the complement. She ended up telling me she has always thought I was pretty. Why is it family never tells each other that?

We took his truck to the party. Its a big thing, with nothing in the back and rear wheel drive (do you know where Im going with this?) their driveway slopes down quite a bit, and was snow covered.. yup.. we got stuck. he thought if he went forward, it would help him get a running start up the hill, but nope.. just got us stuck further down the hill. I recommended we turn around but that just succeeded in sticking us sideways. I suggested I get out and push, and the hubby pshawed that, but I did anyway. I was successful a bit, but then the "men" had come out of the house and got us going. although they left us at the top of the hill, which was still on the hill, and we couldn't get going out of that, so they came back up and pushed us on to the street.

On the way home the hubby and I had a conversation about the complement sue gave me. He commented that it must be nice to hear from someone other than him... which it was. While growing up I didn't get much positive reinforcement that I was pretty, in fact, it was quite the opposite. To this day I don't think I am. And you know what, that is fine by me. the whole humble thing is good. :) and besides, it has always made me work on being pretty on the inside, which frankly is WAY more important to me!

Yesterday we went over to doug and sara's. we sat and talked, we ate pizza, I got the baby pawned off on me.. he went to sleep for a couple of hours while we watched I love the 80's on VH1. I graduated in the 80's, so I remember a lot of it vividly. it was still fun to watch. They decided the baby was hungry. Sara breast feeds, but she had pumped, and so there was a bottle. I offered to feed him. I ended up getting him to drink the whole 2oz, which apparently was a big deal. they were quite impressed, and offered to hire me. :) I reminded them I don't do diapers.. which set off a whole conversation which I won't get into here, but Im sure you can imagine.. lol.

I finally dropped my class today. (classes start today). I feel a little guilty about it, but not so much on other levels. part of me is telling me to call and register for that internet class.. but the other part, a much larger part, is telling me to go back to bed.

I like that part. I think I'll give it a piece of chocolate before listening to it :)

aarrgh

apparently they have drained their hot tub and have no plans to fill it till after they get back.

sigh

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
My mother is on the phone at the moment giving my hubby directions to the family christmas party. why?
cause we don't know where my cousin's new house is, and they are going to be in FLORIDA!
what they wont do to get out of going to this freakin party.

Well at least they'll be gone and I'll feel comfortable going over and using their hot tub..

oh good goodness im bored.
there is so much I could be doing, but darn it, I really don't want to do any of it.
The house is a mess
dinner needs to be made
books to be read
kitties to cuddle.. well some of them
I even have a list of craft projects I could be doing.. but noooo..
Id apparently rather sit here and bitch cause Im cold, and I have nothing to do.
why is it we get in these moods..
I know Im not the only one.

Moved my beanie wall downstairs. Man that was work. Ollie is beyond happy that he can sit on the half wall again. This room looks so weird with out them there. makes the mess stand out even more.. *sigh* guess its time to do some serious cleaning in this room. tomorrow I guess.

the kittens are at the vets getting neutered. I still have to come up with names for them. I SUCK at coming up with good names.

Family christmas party is this weekend. yup.. christmas seems so far away now. but my silly family has decided to have it this weekend. What ever. I still need to hook up with one more friend to get rid of his gift out of my livingroom. Will probably end up having to go down to MA to where he lives to do it. Maybe next weekend... although its been so long since we've been there will probably have to bug him for directions :)

a friend of mine *looks at linda* was talking about her on line personality vs her real life personality.. she says her's aren't the same.
got me to thinking.. a dangerous past time - i know

but lets see.. what's different about me in RL..
Well.... Im not nearly as outgoing in RL than here.. I keep trying. I made a decision one year when I was still in school to not be such a wall flower. after that I used to walk up to people and introduce myself. Made a couple of really good friends that way too :). I asked a guy I had a crush on to a dance. That was fun. I had so much confidence till I heard a few things through back channels that immediately ended my crush on the guy and dropped my self esteem back down the the pathetically low levels it usually is... which brings me to the second thing that is different here than there.. in RL, while I do think Im pretty awesome.. I don't think the rest of the world thinks so. and yes... that bothers me. I try not to let it. Tell myself things like it does not matter what other people think of you (and it DOESN'T!! just so you know) and I remind myself to be the best me I can be.. on some level it does matter. I suppose this is a good thing. If I thought I were perfect and had no room for improvement then what a boring life that would be wouldn't it? If there was nothing else to learn, nothing else to strive for.. what would be the point? anyway I tend not to blow my own horn for the most part.. and for the most part don't stand up for myself when lifes little annoyances tap on my shoulder (but when they get in my face, watch out!).

So anyway.. I am happy with who I am. If the magical faerie came and offered me three self centered wishes Id probably wish for clear skin, the perfect healthy weight for my frame no matter what I ate, and for my eyes to be 20/20. :) all physical stuff. yup. Im happy with who I am and I like the journey I am on. Don't like me? well then.. that's fine. there is a reason there are millions of people in this world. and maybe you should be hanging out with one of them instead of here ...

Im thinking about redoing my website yet again. I don't think its easily navigatable.. and sadly -like most websites- people stop at the front page and dont really explore.. its a pita to do it though, so it will probably be a few months from now.

Im seriously considering dropping all classes this winter and starting up in the fall. Probably not a smart move as I will probably run out of things to do and get cabin fever, but I really can't fathom taking a class right now. I have till monday to make the decision..

Ive also got a massive headache. I should probably go take a nap as we are probably going to see the new baby tonight. The bedroom is freezing though. I opened up the windows before I left this morning.. trying to air out that room as I have had some major allergy attacks in there since we moved all the furniture around. *looks at couch and considers sleeping on that*... nope.. not a good idea. too many kitties use it :)

watched the bone collector last night, then went to bed, had some really strange dreams. Can't remember any of them now.. but I didn't get all that much sleep cause of that and cause of the kittens.. sigh.
I also really need to do something about school. Im signed up for a class I really don't want to take yet, and Im not signed up for a class I did want to take.. plus I have no money to take classes to begin with, so part of me is saying just back out of it all and wait till the fall. Yes.. I don't really want my degree. I just don't want to not have it. Hard place to be.

kitties are all telling me to go take a nap.. I should listen to them

"Sand Or Stone?"

A story tells that two friends were walking through
the desert. In a specific point of the journey, they
had an argument, and one friend slapped the
other one on the face. The one who got slapped
was hurt, but without anything to say, he wrote
in the sand:

"TODAY, MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME ON
THE FACE."

They kept on walking, until they found an oasis,
where they decided to take a bath. The one who
got slapped and hurt started drowning, and the
other friend saved him. When he recovered from
the fright, he wrote on a stone:

"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE"

The friend who saved and slapped his best friend,
asked him, "Why, after I hurt you, you wrote in the
sand, and now you write on a stone?"

The other friend, smiling, replied: "When a
friend hurts us, we should write it down in the
sand, where the winds of forgiveness get in
charge of erasing it away, and when something
great happens, we should engrave it in the stone
of the memory of the heart, where no wind can
erase it."

1. Learn to write in the sand, when you have
difference and hurt feelings with your friend.

2. Learn to write in stone when your friend had
some thing done really good to you.

sigh. Im broke again. Hubby just did the finances and we need to do some serious cut backs for a couple of months. I was really hoping to get a good cat tree/piece of furniture for the kitties as they have a tendancy to scratch on the sofa. there is one on ebay.. and he's offering free shipping.. and its only a little more than a hundred dollars.. its such a deal.. sigh. Hopefully it will still be being sold when we are back on top of things a bit.

its still snowing here. It started yesterday when we were on our way to the hospital. Sara our friend and niece finally gave birth. Elijah Scott.. born at 7:11pm 9lbs 3oz.. 21 in head.. very large feet.. we didn't get to see sara.. but we did see doug.. he was so proud.. she was induced that morning and was in labor all day. we were supposed to get 12+ inches, but come this morning we seemed to only have four or five.. but the wind was screaming, and under my car I could actually see the pavement. Although it snowed all day, and will snow into the night, so who knows how much we'll have by the time we are done.