night time cravings

I had a dream last night that I was dying of thirst and all there was to drink was a diet pepsi, so I drank it. Then as the night went on I was still thirsty, and I figured what the heck I already drank one, so I drank two more. Im amazed the pull diet soda still has on me even though I haven't had any since before christmas. Every day I look at my hubby's full calorie soda and crave it. Fortunately I have enough sence not to drink full calorie soda, but still. I wish I could just be done with this craving. Soda does me no good. I have super low and no calorie drinks that I use instead of drinking plain water which gets tedious after a while.

Ive done really good on my diet this week. x-3 lbs last I looked. I haven't exercised for a few days, but that is easy enough to catch up on.

Im going to go out and look for furniture today. I don't quite know why since I have no income and thus no extra money for furniture, but hey, one can look. I do want a small table for the end of my hall, or maybe a bench. Something cute to look at when walking down the hall. I need to put my house back in order too, but that is so low on my list of priorities.. although at this point playing bejeweled 2 is too high on my list. I just broke level 10.. I was so tickled. I really hope I get sick of playing that game soon :D

Start over

Well I had been feeling like I had been doing ok. My skinny jeans were feeling exceptionally tight any more. Then the superbowl happened. So Im back to square one according to my scale. Im definately going to have to take better control of this. Just saying I want to loose weight isn't going to do it.

Id LOVE to go raw. Even if I didn't do 100% raw, I love the thought, and the foods Ive seen, but I did a little research, and it seems like a boat load of work. I mean way too much work to eat raw food. Now that Im unemployeed, you would think this would be a perfect time to start, but there is quite an investment to get into it as well. There probably is a cheaper way, but Im just not that into it yet. Probably a few more weeks of not loosing any more weight might just do it.

So Im back to counting calories. Im going with somewhere between 12 and 1500 per day. According to the "experts" it takes almost 4000 to maintain my current weight, so this should be good. Im currently at 300 calories for the day, but I need to go have lunch :) I made a 500 calorie breakfast, but I didn't eat it all. I will finish it at somepoint for a "desert" so Im going to just count the whole 5. Now. What to have for lunch...

no unemployment for me

Well I heard from the state, they decided that since my boss lied to them, that I don't deserve unemployment. I am so going to contest. Its just not right!!

On a side note, sometimes it totally pays to think outside the box. Hubby just locked his keys in his truck running. He tried to get the door open with a coat hanger, but couldn't do it. We could get the door open enough that he could climb up on top of it and reach in and open it. I thought of that. :)

I cleaned up the fridge today. Its amazing what hides in the back of fridges. *shudder* I moved my good for me snacks to the door so I can grab them easily. Hopefully that will help. Exercise is going well. I am thinking of buying an exercise video and doing that in addition to my regular routine. Can't hurt to put more work in. I got on line and figured out how many calories it takes to keep my weight up. Its scarey. I can't believe I standardly eat that much, which I must because I am staying at that standard weight. I so need to keep track of my intake.

arrgh

What defect does a person have to have to become a habitual lier?!?! My goodness. I knew my ex boss was an idiot when it came to dealing with people, but to outright lie to the state is unfreakin believeable. I just want to scream! Ya know, if what I did was so freaking horrible that I shouldn't get unemployment I would accept that, but I will not accept this jerk lying to keep me from getting it. I have to wonder what lies he is telling potential employeers when they call up for a referance. I should call some places after I know Im not being hired and ask.

sigh

jerk

arrgh

What defect does a person have to have to become a habitual lier?!?! My goodness. I knew my ex boss was an idiot when it came to dealing with people, but to outright lie to the state is unfreakin believeable. I just want to scream! Ya know, if what I did was so freaking horrible that I shouldn't get unemployment I would accept that, but I will not accept this jerk lying to keep me from getting it. I have to wonder what lies he is telling potential employeers when they call up for a referance. I should call some places after I know Im not being hired and ask.

sigh

jerk

I have GOT to stop answering the phone.

Well.. I now have my THIRD interview. This is really quite freaky. I thought there were a glut of employees out there looking for work, but apparently not. I am torn between feeling incredibly grateful and completley overwhelmed. I have a feeling I have already interviewed at this third place, but I can't remember for certain. The second place seemed like a fun work enviroment, but Im not sure I would like it. I liked the benifits of the first interview, but I wasn't too thrilled with the actual job. Who knows. Im sure the perfect position will come to me when it is avalible. Hopefully I wont have to turn down anything along the way.

Still don't know if Im getting unemployment or not. Hopefully tomorrow I'll hear. Like with my job, I don't really care if I get it or not (ok, yes, getting it would be WAY better than not getting it.. but it wont make or break me) its the not knowing that is bugging me. I don't want to keep looking for meaningless jobs if I don't have to.

Im a little behind on my exercise. I painted the bedroom on Sunday, and I am so freaking sore all over. Yesterday was tough. Today is so so, but Im avoiding doing pretty much anything but playing computer games. Ok. Im going to go make curtains and clean.

No.. really. I am.

really...