arrrgh!

There is a cartoon that has been rewritten by several different artists about their main charaters having a bad day. It starts off with a wish to be dead, then the main charater realizes they couldn't continue to do the things they do like to do, so they change their mind and wish everyone else was dead.

Im kinda in that place right now.

grrrr

Hopefully the day will get better.

broke down

Ok.. I took one more pill. I had to. I had a HORRIBLE night last night. I got horribly dizzy and nautious. Somehow I made it home (I went out to the movies) and crawled into bed. I woke up this morning feeling almost normal, then I moved. That wasn't a good thing, so I broke down and had one. I know this is only going to prolong my agony, but hopefully I wont feel like vomiting every two seconds. Somehow I ate breakfast this morning, but I so don't want lunch or anything else to eat.. not even cookies, which you KNOW something isn't right if I dont want to eat cookies. I need to go in and play with the kittens, but the idea of it is turning my stomach again. All I want to do is go back to bed and sleep... but I wont. I'll attempt to do some things on my todo list, and if I can't face it, I'll take a nap before my meeting tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be feeling normal enough to go to work tomorrow...

Women

"Women"

Women have strengths that amaze men.

They carry children, they carry hardships, they carry
burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream. They sing
when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.

Women wait by the phone for a "safe at home call"
from a friend after a snowy drive home.

Women have special qualities about them. They
volunteer for good causes.

They are pink ladies in hospitals, they bring food to
shut ins. They are child care workers, executives,
attorneys, stay-at-home moms, biker babes and
your neighbors.

They wear suits, jeans, and uniforms. They fight for
what they believe in. They stand up for injustice.
They are in the front row at PTA meetings. They vote
for the person that will do the best job for family issues.

They walk and talk the extra mile to get their children
in the right schools and for getting their family the
right health care.

They write to the editor, their congressmen and to the
"powers that be" for things that make for a better life.

They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe
there is a better solution.

They stick a love note in their mate's lunch box. They
do without new shoes so their children can have them.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love
unconditionally.

Women are honest, loyal, and forgiving. They are
smart, knowing that knowledge is power. But they
still know how to use their softer side to make a point.

Women want to be the best for their family, their friends,
and themselves. They cry when their children
excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new
marriage. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They
have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they
are strong when they think there is no strength left. A
woman's touch can cure any ailment. They know that
a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

She can make a romantic evening unforgettable.

Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.
They live in homes, apartments, and cabins. They
drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much
they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!

Women do more than just give birth. They bring joy
and hope. They give compassion and ideals. They
give moral support to their family and friends. And all
they want back is a hug, a smile and for you to do the
same to people you come in contact with.

24 hours with out meds

Oh my Im dizzy. I really really hate this, but Im sick and tired of taking them and not feeling any better so off I go. The dr recommended taking one every other day at this stage, but I don't really want to, I want to get off as soon as possible. Who ever thought the side effects of anti-depressants were worse than being depressed. I have today and tomorrow off, and I SO wanted to do some spring cleaning, but I barely have the fortitude to get out of bed. so of course Im trying to self medicate with food, figuring if I have enough sugar in my system it will help counter act how horrid I feel, but its not working. So much for my diet. I was down about five or so pounds this week, but I don't think that is going to last, but that is ok, cause next week I can get back on.. listen to me.. next week... how about tomorrow? Who knows.. guess we'll have to see how it goes.

asshole of a "boss"

I put that in quotes cause technically he isn't my boss. I work for the office, and we have an office manager and a sales manager. when the office manager is out, the sales manager is technically in charge, but he is such a freakingly clueless self absorbed lying idiot that sometimes I just want to smack him. Not to mention he wears WAY too much cologne. He has no idea how clueless he is, and when you try to tell him you are in the wrong. Oh I could just scream!

I should turn this anger into pitty, cause eventually someone is going to tell him and he will listen and then wont he be sad and totally with out a job. Ok maybe not sad, he'll probably turn it all around and scream religious prosecution, cause he is a lying zealot.... but hey.. if this is how he chooses to live his life, then that really is his own fault. He'll probably burn in hell cause I truly doubt he believes in his religion, cause if he did he wouldn't do half the crap he does. I should just take comfort in that, although my religion doesn't allow me to. I should try to redeem him - but there is no redemption for him!! ok, maybe there would be but he wont allow it, cause he is right, you are wrong, even though you know how to do his job better than him.

jerk

looking over the cliff

Have you ever had one of those projects where you think the reward of having it completed way out weighs the work involved to finish it? then you start to get into it and you realize it is going to take way more work than you thought, but you trudge along anyway.. only to find out that there is even way MORE work involved and you just really want to give it all up?

Well life is like that for me sometimes. I can't really complain cause on paper my life is pretty darn good. Yes, I have a weight problem, but if that is my biggest complaint I really need to shut up. But this morning after I got out of my shower I looked twoward my sink and saw all kinds of bath product bottles and just started thinking about how much work my life is and wondered again for the millionth and a half time if it was really all worth it, and wouldn't everyone around me be better off with out me.

Logically I know the answer is no. but there is a part of me that knows life would go on with out me and maybe things would be better in the long run. I hate that part of me. Fortunately I am stronger than it... and God willing I always will be.

You Are 55% Normal

You Are 55% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?