*head sand*

oh my goodness how I am hating being out in the world. I want to go home, I want to snuggle into bed, I want to be suffocated with kitties.. *whine*

I'm at work, I don't want to be here, I'm doing the bare minimum to not be sitting here playing games ALL day long.

It's snowing, it's sleeting, its generally very nasty outside.

whine whine whine..

OMG I need to just grow up and accept life.. *smacks myself, then keeps on whinning*

(whining? ugh, I need to learn to spell too!)

ok then

Well I figured out something about my depression... and I'm not sure I like it.

I was faced with making several appointments Monday. I hate calling people. I hate dealing with this sort of thing. Always have. It is silly I know, but I often just can't face dealing with dealing with people. I needed to renew my library books, call the vet and make an appointment, call my dr and make an appointment and... shoot there was something else.. well I'm pretty sure I took care of it.

But facing having to call all these people just sent me off the deep end. I felt like I was facing unsermountable odds.. it's stupid, it was / is a couple of phone calls..

I called the vet. I emailed the library (and they didn't email me back so I'll have to stop by after work) I put off the dr. I really shouldn't. *sigh* but I do not want to call them. I should make my DH do it for me (because I can) but this is really something I should do, something I should be able to do.

my goodness.. how on earth do I function through life??