Not as it appears

I'm sitting here at work on the day of the inauguration, and there are a few things I want to say that are going to appear completely differently than I mean them.

first, I am SICK AND TIRED of this inauguration.

second, the soon to be president scares me a little.

now this seems like I'm totally anti-Obama doesn't it? well I'm not. I'm trilled. although to be honest I think I'd be thrilled if McCain were taking over too, cause I'm so sick and tired of Bush, and have been since day one. now he REALLY scared me. I think it is wonderful that we elected a "black man" although seriously why wouldn't we have? I guess I'm mentally 20+ years ahead of this, and thinking why is this such a big deal. Part of me gets it, but part of me thinks we really shouldn't be this amazed.

but as for this inauguration.. we have been talking about it, the parties, the parades, the dress, the girls, everything for weeks if not months. and there has been nothing else on the news but this darn thing and the security and the pilgrimage, etc for 48 hours.. probably more but I didn't watch much tv over the weekend. Seriously, there is NO other news going on?? No puppies pulling kittens out of burning buildings? no kidnapped little girls with blond hair? nothing?? I guess some people were right when they thought the world would come to an end when we would elect a "black man" (I only use quotes because I really hate that phrase. To me he is just a man)

so why does he scare me? well it certainly isn't because he's black. Steven Colbert often says he doesn't see color. He makes a joke out of it, but to me I really don't. I was watching the ABC morning show and Robin was talking about black history, and then went on to do another segment about King, and I wondered why she was doing all the talking, and then part of me realized that it was probably because she was black. (African American?? should I be all PC here? but then again not Africans are black these days.. it really does get all confusing I mean what do you call a white African who comes to America??)

He scares me because he's TOO smooth. He is TOO well liked. to me someone who is a little too well polished is someone who is not to be trusted. I want to trust him, I have no reason not to... I guess that's where I'm just a little hesitant.. aka scared.. I guess I'm waiting for the shoe to drop.

it isn't like you can say this in public. to do so would immediately brand me as a racist... I know it would. we have a woman at work who baked obama cupcakes (*rolls eyes*) and is all happy and thrilled and if I didn't know better I'd say she was already three sheets to the wind celebrating. She has a friend down in DC and she told her to pick up bobble heads and other souvenirs. It tickles me to hear her because she's southern.. but she's a little over the top, and when I said I was sick of hearing about the inauguration because it is all that has been talked about for weeks, she branded me a party pooper.. (*more eye rolling*)

I am thrilled. I can't wait for the passing of the torch. I can't wait to see what is going to happen.

I guess I just want life to get back to normal.

although that little devil on my shoulder says "So what is normal??"