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I am friggen miserable. My face still hurts from the wisdom teeth removal, then I went and had another cavity filled with the new laser - didn't much like that either, and now I have an attack of the allergies.. Can't breath, can't swallow, and my nose will not stop running drips right down on to my face with out any input from me. Frikken annoying!

Still no contact from said friend below. Not sure if I should be scared or annoyed. I suppose I could call him, but that would involve two things I hate.. calling people and confrontation.. nope.. I think I'll just sit here and wallow in my patheticness. Nobody likes me.. waaah!

had a really weird dream last night. I know it was much more involved than I remember (don't I always seem to be saying that) but I do remember there was stuff before the stuff I remember, I just don't remember what that is... anyway.. I was in a clothing / megamart type store. I was looking at clothing when I was distracted by the need to go see a manager for one reason or another, so I went to the front of the store, and it turned into a huge field. The person I needed to talk to was a wait, and was halfway up a mountain. I walked past the field where people were dancing (doing some sort of customer service dance??) and past a large pond, and started up the mountain. I interrupted the person and said I had a serious problem. I was being stalked and harassed. the person wanted proof, so I said follow me, and walked back into the store, explaining what ever it was that came before, but I don't remember it to type it out. I went to the book/card section, and there was a greeting card about declawing your cats, and inside there was a threat to me. That I picked it up was quite random, and I showed it to the person, who then started taking me seriously. which of course was just totally outside the believability factor ;) so I woke up.

I am doing the most menial thing at work. Usually takes me three days to get through it, but because of all the sludge I'm getting through right now this thing has taken me almost two weeks. Fortunately my boss is understanding. But this is two weeks of basic hell for me. My mind wanders as I'm trying to enter things in the computer. (and annoyingly the computer does NOT go as fast as I do, so I have to slow down, which makes my mind wander even more) I spent two or three days crafting a post about self esteem and self worth. - which obviously you don't see here because I've been so busy with this project. Then I spent a couple of days at the local amusement park I used to work at. Sometimes I was alone. Sometimes I was with my aforementioned friend. Sometimes I was with other people I knew there - some I was crushing on, some who were crushing on me - being single at the time.. ) I am NOT a huge fan of this amusement park.. haven't been since before I stopped working there, so spending time there in my mind was friggen annoying. I wanted to spend time on a warm beach - but seeing as my office is very cold, and even I don't have that much imagination, I was stuck at the amusement park.

looks like I might have an hours worth of work left.. I should probably get on it. My boss said I can leave early - which I threatened to do when I finished this. She even offered to send me home before I finished it, but I really want this off my desk!!