well now I'm confusing myself

Well this is an odd sensation.  I stumbled upon a woman who wears a hijab and she likes to dress in the lolita style.. it is really quite adorable.. so I went over to her instagram account and was scrolling through her photos to see more.

now I like to think of myself as progressive.  I accept there are things I don't understand or whatever, and if that is your thing, that's great, good for you.. etc.. but the more I looked at this woman wearing the hijab that covered up her hair and neck, the more I wanted her to take it off so I could see the 'real person' underneath.

I really and completely feel like that part of me is missing the point all together.. that this is the real person, because this is who she is and what she believes.  I accept that, so why on earth did I find myself wishing more and more that she'd just take that 'stupid scarf' off'???

again.. I don't think it is stupid, I think it is beautiful that her traditions have taught her this is one way to please God.

I wondered if I had a need to see women in hair.. so I googled images of bald women.. I didn't feel the same way.. (goodness those bald women are freakingly beautiful. I hope if I ever have to be bald that I have that much confidence)

so I googled women in hijabs, and again, I didn't have that reaction.. lots more beautiful women beautifully committed to their beliefs..

so really I have nothing.  I was hoping by typing this out I might get some sort of clarity.  I've got nothing.. just one sheltered white chick wishing she understood herself more..

nothing new there.