tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34543142012-01-26T21:30:02.934-05:00just me.. being me~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.comBlogger7681100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-60067032078710658592011-05-18T09:46:00.000-04:002011-05-18T09:46:10.779-04:00

so I got all annoyed with the half pounds, so as a present my scale rounded UP.. *grumble* But I didn't get annoyed because I slept horribly.  Then just to mess with my head it went up another pound to 228 this morning.. *grumble grumble*  I exercised yesterday and had a very light dinner.. *grumble grumble* I feel like a three year old being punished for not playing the game right when I've

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-27147134564261274872011-05-13T13:30:00.000-04:002011-05-13T13:30:35.083-04:00

arrgh. I'm miserable, tired, and can barely walk up the stairs with out getting winded.  This is getting freakingly annoying.  So as I was making my morning smoothie, my husband asked me if I was going to have the buckwheat waffles we saw at the grocery store this past weekend.  I reminded him that I didn't buy it because I wasn't sure if I was allergic to buckwheat or not.  I got out my list

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-21477559279394790672011-05-11T11:45:00.000-04:002011-05-11T11:45:40.579-04:00

Welcome to my life. Every day at 5pm my energy goes out shopping or to Mars or something and I pretty much feel dead.  Some how I get my tushie home from work and I can barely get in the door and get my work things put down before I collapse on the bed for a little rest.  I'm very thankful my husband cooks dinner, so I can eat.  I then drag my butt out of bed and go down stairs and feed the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-65844773753474657902011-05-10T09:43:00.000-04:002011-05-10T09:43:11.791-04:00

what is it with these half pounds anyway?? so I'm grudgingly starting to admit that maybe just maybe there is something to this food "allergy" thing.  I don't get it, I don't like it (GIVE ME A GRILLED CHEESE DARN IT!!) but it is hard to complain when the scale is finally starting to go in the right direction. Not sure why the old scale is so much lower then the new one.  It fluctuates so

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-91839364629989081712011-05-09T11:04:00.000-04:002011-05-09T11:04:23.194-04:00

Ok, I also wanted to admit that I'm starting to see a distinct difference between organic and conventional products.  The beef broth I make with conventional bones does not gel at all, but those I make with organic ones (well I get them from Whole Foods, I'm assuming they are organic) gels up nicely. So the only other change I've made to my diet other then removing the "allergens" is to try to

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-22720804444498632982011-05-09T10:33:00.000-04:002011-05-09T10:33:27.152-04:00

I was at 229 all weekend.  Very hard to not let it bug me since I was feeling absolutely MISERABLE all weekend.  Feverish, tired, worn out just walking up the stairs... I felt pretty pathetic.  Fortunately DH was on board with the shit I have to go through right now cause all I wanted was a grilled cheese sandwich, and he made me a grass fed burger (sans bun) with pepper and chopped broccoli.

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-46146081370830325572011-05-06T10:58:00.000-04:002011-05-06T10:58:33.034-04:00

no change.  Not surprised. I did have an excess of gas yesterday which I thought rather interesting.  I also had a hard time going to sleep, I felt wired like I usually do when I have too much protein and not enough carbs.  I usually have a piece of bread and I settle and go right to sleep.  but since bread is out, I just 'toughed it out' and eventually after some tossing I got to sleep. This

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-55428853438239304592011-05-05T10:22:00.000-04:002011-05-05T10:22:45.880-04:00

well that number was both surprisingly good and annoyingly frustrated, since that is the number I've been for weeks (since the last hurrah weekend before starting the food allergy diet) So I went and stepped on the old scale.  That one used to say either 229.5 or 227.5 which is so bizarre.  But this time it read 226.5.  So maybe things are working ?? (as much as I want them to, a little part of

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-87566718256292828092011-05-04T09:50:00.000-04:002011-05-04T09:50:38.614-04:00

I'm miserable.  I'm tired, cranky, and feel horribly bloated.  I also slept miserably last night and actually gained weight overnight.. fun fun I was 232 when I went to bed (I know I shouldn't have jumped on the scale, but I was curious) and 232.5 when I woke up.  Now granted, I got maybe five hours of sleep, which explains a lot.  I tend to gain when I sleep miserably.  I also weighed after 40

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-46664752339629943462011-05-03T11:53:00.000-04:002011-05-03T11:53:23.937-04:00

232 this morning, which is good.  but day one was very hard.  Day two is shaping up to be harder as breakfast didn't last nearly as long as I thought it would (based on yesterday) that's ok, I'm not starving, I'm distracted.  I can deal.  So far other then bread (which is always hard for me to give up) I'm not craving any of the foods I shouldn't be eating.  For the most part most of those foods

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-75229344182275234702011-05-02T17:32:00.000-04:002011-05-02T17:32:02.730-04:00

I know it has been a while since I blogged.  My blog, my perogitive. I've been seeing a new dr, and we have tried several new things, and no success.  My weight has just gone up and up.  I can not express to you how frustrating that is.  To do everything right and be 'rewarded" with a great big YOU SUCK on the scale.  My clothes no longer fit, and I'm fast approaching the size of clothing that I

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-46336276985060312402011-05-02T17:15:00.000-04:002011-05-02T17:15:32.202-04:00

I woke up to the news that Osama Bin Ladin had been killed.  Not what I was sad about.  In the next breath the news anchors were sharing the "joy of the nation" about the fact that a man was dead. Doesn't this just feed into the reasons why this man wanted us all dead?? I mean seriously, who takes JOY at the death of another individual, and what kind of country does. I do believe that some

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-48566092470573953832011-01-08T08:09:00.000-05:002011-01-08T08:09:04.822-05:00

I wonder if this has anything to do with the medications I'm taking (via my dr) or if I'm just in an active period.  Yesterday I had some doozies, but I forgot all but one part of it before I could write them down.  There was one part though where I bought a multi stone ring.  All the stones were the same and were tension set in the band.  Before I knew it though, one of the stone fell out.  Why

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-39958017521673641832011-01-06T16:16:00.000-05:002011-01-06T16:16:43.448-05:00

This is starting to get odd.  *shrug*  oh well, So this one started out (at least what I can first remember) as my being pregnant.  Then I had the baby.  No I didn't go into labor, I just had it.  It was a boy.  I was actually glad to raise him, thinking of how I would do it right.  I was trying to swaddle him, and finally succeeded.  I went into the next room while he slept, and promptly forgot

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-68901224897485689722011-01-03T23:57:00.000-05:002011-01-03T23:57:37.922-05:00

this one was interesting. I was watching Guiding Light.  It was different from the TV show, more of an interactive live show.  I stood from a far, and watched.  At one point Beth and some young Spanish boy moved off into a field and started to have a heated argument in Spanish..  After a few moments, I yelled out of my car window (because at this point I was in my car - which makes as much sense

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-14948225838496160382011-01-03T23:51:00.000-05:002011-01-03T23:51:56.572-05:00

according to my exercise chart vs food intake that despite eating 45% fat, I burned 600 more calories then I took in. So that totally validates the two pound weight loss doesn't it? Had my appointment this morning.  I have an official "your a mess" diagnosis, and supplements to taken. I have to go back tomorrow for nutritional counseling.  We'll see what happens, but at least she did say I did

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-79779808140147703912011-01-02T10:29:00.000-05:002011-01-02T10:29:16.740-05:00

well crap.  How did that happen. Ok, I know full well how that happened, but it is still freaking annoying.  I'm seeing a new doctor who ran some new tests, and we decided to wait until after the holiday to get the results and make a plan.  She said her plan would most likely include gluten free, which I absolutely hate the idea of, but at this point I am willing to try anything, especially when

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-28792259187786614712011-01-02T10:18:00.000-05:002011-01-02T10:18:51.565-05:00

Well this was interesting. It started with (ok so I remember it starting with) a number of tigers, or at least very large cats that I should be fearful of.  One of my cats, (don't know which one) was bigger then it is IRL, and it was among the large cats, I went and snuggled with my cat, and was laying among the larger cats.  I was so overwhelmed and enjoyed being near them.  My cat rolled over

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-5260036813842374402010-11-18T12:50:00.000-05:002010-11-18T12:50:11.077-05:00

I got into the shower last night, and realized the bumps on my arms are almost completely gone.  I'm sure if someone else touched them, they probably wouldn't even feel them.  I've been pulling oil a little more frequently lately because my teeth have been bothering me again.  Fortunately the more I pull, the less they bother me. I STILL don't understand why.  I can not fathom that it "pulls

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-82635165507253977032010-11-18T12:39:00.000-05:002010-11-18T12:39:31.074-05:00

so I've been hitting the sugar pretty frequently the past few days.  I've also been off my thyroid energy support supplement.  does one have to do with the other have to do with the third?? probably. but in which order??? I weighed 219 this morning, I went and I exercised for about 40 minutes and stretched for maybe another 10 (maybe 12 I watched 20 minutes of a program and sat on the floor for

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-53215012621732125182010-11-16T10:53:00.000-05:002010-11-16T10:53:49.443-05:00

this one was interesting. I was on an island.  I had found something I had wanted to keep and I showed it to my significant other (was it DH? I don't remember now, but it will be him later) He told me we couldn't, but I insisted, and he relented, but suggested there might be trouble.  Then there was a large ship on the ocean coming towards us.  SO told me that it was pay back for keeping the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-18449060958971940642010-11-15T13:20:00.000-05:002010-11-15T13:20:54.663-05:00

Well now this is very VERY interesting. I have made it a point to cook on Sunday.  I make a big ragout to last me most of the week, some cooked ground beef to add to other dishes, etc.  This week my food ran out on Thursday, but I was off on friday so I didn't need to pack a lunch, so I just went lazy.  And to top it off, I WANTED pizza on Saturday. I didn't do too badly on Fri and most of

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-75498811098540858242010-11-10T13:16:00.000-05:002010-11-10T13:16:29.797-05:00

what the heck?? how did that happen?  Last night I weighed and got 217, I was SO sure that I was finally going to start gaining weight on this silly diet.. but nope, I'm down a pound.. *shrug* that's ok.  I have to keep reminding myself this experiment is not about weight really it is about refeeding my body so it isn't nutritionally deprived - if in fact it was.  Giving it things it hasn't

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-5283163620198523142010-11-09T11:15:00.001-05:002010-11-10T13:19:07.551-05:00

it sucks that I hate this "diet" I'm on.  I mean what could possibly be better then all the cheese and sour cream you could want? I'm jonsing for some fruit and peanut butter though.  Not to mention my sugar cravings are still there. This weekend was a bad one for me, as there was a wake and a funeral to attend, then the obligatory food fest, and so I ate.  Then there were other things at home,

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-71024547678369160172010-11-04T10:02:00.001-04:002010-11-10T13:18:44.661-05:00

So I was cooking this morning for today's food, and DH was in the room.  I lamented that while I hated this "diet" for all the cooking I had to do, I did really enjoy throwing cheese on everything I was eating. This is so counter to EVERYTHING I've ever read about diet.  animal fats = bad!!!! (yes, with all the !'s) so then why am I starting to fee a bit better?  I'm no where near saying this is

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-42772469189127516082010-11-03T13:35:00.001-04:002010-11-10T13:18:15.308-05:00

Well avoiding the sugar was a little easier yesterday, but not by much.  So far today I've been called by left over candy corn and french truffles, the candy corn is not all that appealing, and I have coconut oil fudge to combat the truffle. Had a huge "discussion" with DH.  He makes dinner for us, and I explained on Sunday it was just meat and green veggies.  We didn't have any meat in the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-32983206134369758942010-11-02T11:25:00.001-04:002010-11-10T13:17:57.231-05:00

Ok, so day one was a "fail" - although that is a pretty strict term isn't it.  Lets just call it a rough start. I ate a few things on my own that were in the "lets not" category, and when I got home, DH hadn't listened to me and wanted to make orange chicken for dinner... covered with a sugary orange sauce and breaded.. *sigh*  and in not listening to me, he hadn't picked up anything more

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-65275023767555725592010-11-01T16:07:00.001-04:002010-11-10T13:17:35.886-05:00

Yes, I am an all or nothing kind of girl.  But at least I can accept the fail and move on. SO far I've already had two (small) pieces of chocolate.  One was a french truffle (OMG YUM!! I know what I want for Christmas) the other was a bit off a dark chocolate bar (High cocoa % so technically very little sugar in it, but yet there is still sugar) all I can think of today is that story about the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-2627311361070350042010-11-01T10:55:00.001-04:002010-11-10T13:17:09.067-05:00

as you can tell, I'm trying something new (how can you tell? I'm posting on my blog.. lol) So I'm still gaining weight (sorta - I've been 210 for quite some time, and currently due to some Halloween snacking I was 213 the other day) I'm still tired as all get out, and I'm still exercising every day 40 minutes almost every day, and eating under 2000 calories.  I plan 1200-1400 calorie meal plan,

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-9414335848539291302010-09-29T16:28:00.000-04:002010-09-29T16:28:52.156-04:00

Well I finally did it.  I broke down and watched Avatar.  I have to say, I hated it even more then I suspected I would. Granted, it was a beautifully shot flick.  On my non premium flat screen HiDef TV and plain ol DVD player, I could easily see where several things were CGI'd but on the whole it was quite beautiful. But there was many a spot where I found myself thinking, he did this simply

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-79283837362875238342010-08-09T13:18:00.001-04:002010-08-09T13:19:50.455-04:00

Been a long time since I talked about my weight.  Mostly because no matter what I do it goes up.  I also get frustrated with that and eat more.. I went to the dr about it, I bought a arm band device that measured my calorie burn and kept track of every calorie I ate (300-500 calorie deficit every friggen day) I had my blood drawn more times then I care to remember (of course more then once is

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-88905462873453220332010-08-09T12:53:00.000-04:002010-08-09T12:53:59.077-04:00

I knew a girl in high school.  She was my maid of honor, but I wasn't even in her wedding party when she got married just a few years after.  Our friendship went just down hill from there mostly because she didn't even tell me that I wasn't going to be in the wedding, but made me ask.  I've seen her randomly over the years since then but surprisingly I've seen her sister more (who I actually also

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-80368243225729553992010-07-20T12:04:00.000-04:002010-07-20T12:04:30.081-04:00

not sure why I'm doing this.. but I had another dream about GL. I am not sure if I was in the show, or driving by the set. But there were shots, and a huge explosion. I knew this was the finale and I wanted to remember everything.. and of course I remember that the dream was much more involved then this, but this is what the daylight has reduced it to.

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-22543001125340963272010-07-18T10:41:00.000-04:002010-07-18T10:41:20.894-04:00

well I didn't blog about a recent change in my life. I had a dental appointment for a cleaning, and my dentist office didn't have a copy of the xrays I took recently (at a different dentist). I knew they had them, or at least at one point had. I went to a dentist in another city that offered the laser dental thingie. I HATE novicane with a passion, and the chance that a laser would allow me

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-70813311085671215642010-07-18T10:30:00.000-04:002010-07-18T10:30:25.429-04:00

So I admit, I watch Oprah. I don't watch all of the shows, but if she is talking about something I think might be interesting, I watch. She's now on this kick of Women Food and God. I think this is a very interesting idea, and I probably should buy the book and read it, but at the moment I'm just listening to the shows and reading a few articles on the website. The general gist of what I've

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-25918942710324072362010-07-18T10:10:00.000-04:002010-07-18T10:10:42.350-04:00

This one started out with my checking into a hotel room that looked much like a hospital room. Two beds, two closets, a bath, etc. I took the bed closest to the door and put my stuff down and went out for dinner. I walked around, but I don't remember eating anything. I went back to my room, and the door was open. I was concerned, but walked in slowly. There was someone by the second bed

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-7075669551214992722010-06-18T08:13:00.001-04:002010-06-18T08:13:38.069-04:00

I had a few odd dreams last night. One I was taking care of my skin. I have started massaging oils into my skin, but in my dream i was massaging cottage cheese into it.the other dream was much longer and much more involved. It started out with a therapy session. I am not sure if I was the therapist or the client. There were gum paste like paper dolls. The pieces were a bit softer - almost

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-62696532471870337982010-05-28T07:33:00.000-04:002010-05-28T07:33:51.790-04:00

I had two dreams yesterday that were really interesting, but for the life of me I can't remember them. This morning I had a really cool dream that I'm losing pretty quickly. The ending was very strong, and as I tried to remember the time line, I got the beginning, and now I'm losing the ending. What I remember is that I was in a large school with Odie (a guy I knew in school) I hung out with

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-72630727139828895142010-04-15T14:11:00.000-04:002010-04-15T14:11:10.088-04:00

I haven't blogged in a while because I did not want to admit what I was seeing. Before Easter I was not careful with my diet at all. Ok so I didn't jump off the binge bridge, but I was eating breads and cookies that weren't really fitting into my diet. On the Monday after Easter I weighed 211!! I decided to go on a no carb diet. Ok so that doesn't really explain what I decided. I was going

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-1848975101948596812010-04-15T14:00:00.000-04:002010-04-15T14:00:46.228-04:00

I heard about oil pulling when I was searching around for answers for my very sore teeth. I recently had an issue with them. When ever I would bite down on one side it felt like it was going to crack, so I went to the dentist. He found a small cavity under a large filling and asked me if I wanted him to fill it. Well technically the answer is NO!!!! but I didn't much like the pain and the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-64967574603593113482010-03-23T14:51:00.000-04:002010-03-23T14:51:34.547-04:00

Regarding the "Would you rather be Fat & Happy? Or Thin & Sad?" article. I've made my decision. The antidepressant I went on made me eat things I wouldn't normally eat with out them, so I figured I'd rather be sad and thin (and healthy) so I knew where I landed on this question before I even read the article. It was interesting to listen to someone else talk about the question though. It is

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-32184383258081741812010-03-16T15:02:00.000-04:002010-03-16T15:02:05.679-04:00

Dear Andrew, I am so sorry you felt the need to take your own life. And I am very sorry that no one seems to be able to respect you for an individual, and not so and so's son. I'm sorry they can't seem to accept any of your accomplishments beyond Growing Pains. I did not know you. I could not know your pain. But I do know those you left behind miss you terribly. I pray you have found the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-90808186407383383292010-03-15T16:55:00.000-04:002010-03-15T16:55:42.107-04:00

Ok, there is soemthing seriously wrong with me. Not something that I can't overcome I guess, but it is still annoying me. I have this problem where I am full. I have eaten a healthy (or even not so healthy) meal (or snack) and I have filled my stomach up to the point where I am full, and for some reason I feel the need to shove something else in there. This weekend (and currently at the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-90560871895509854222010-03-08T16:30:00.000-05:002010-03-08T16:30:31.456-05:00

Well I posted that I thought I was doing better.. Well I'm not. I'm up to 204.5 lbs (I was at 205, went to 203 then popped back up) and my colon has slowed right down. Such a bizarre thing to not make any obvious changes and have such dramatic changes in the body.. I am making an effort to get more protein rich foods back into my diet. Simply because the oatmeal fits calorie wise, doesn't

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-81298737372827400662010-02-24T16:09:00.000-05:002010-02-24T16:09:51.169-05:00

I am now using the infamous "you can't POSSIBLY be hungry" line with myself.. *head desk* I grew up with that line. My mother threw it at me all the friggen time. I think it is why I got so heavy, because I believed if I felt hungry that I must be. that and I hated that line so very very much. When you are a growing child, it is possible to have had dinner and still be hungry later. For

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-78765477990090535042010-02-15T14:36:00.000-05:002010-02-15T14:36:00.676-05:00

Ok, I'm officially late in my Depo shot, so while I wouldn't say I am "off depo" I'm on the right side of missing my shot to see if this helps me lose weight. I haven't been watching my diet so closely either. I had pizza on Friday and Applebees on Sunday. but I only had two pieces of a medium and a chicken dish from A. Ok so the chicken was covered in cheese, and came with rice, and I ate

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-60098500985629263212010-02-09T12:38:00.000-05:002010-02-09T12:38:15.131-05:00

Guess I have to start a new catagory. While I don't remember when the first one was, there was that time I was exercising and as I was walking upstairs I just didn't want to face it (no, no idea what "it" was) and I sat on the stairs crying for who knows how long. Today I was getting ready for work and DH cleaned my blender and didn't put it back together properly. I did not realize until I

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-27939160438256671292010-02-02T09:16:00.000-05:002010-02-02T09:16:27.390-05:00

Ok, so apparently my scale lied to me for weeks. Or maybe it's just lying to me know who knows. This morning it also read 203 *sob* Maybe this means I should be looking into liposuction and getting my arms cut off.. *shrug* I mean it isn't like I'm buying a new car

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-14256414517983235472010-02-02T09:14:00.000-05:002010-02-02T09:14:50.411-05:00

This one was odd. I know I'm forgetting some interesting events, because I have vague memories of things I can't connect to anything. Started out at a large hall where we had dinner. DH, I a friend K, and his significant other (he's now married in RL but I have never met her, and and I have no idea if it was a wife or a girlfriend in the dream) K and I have always been hand holding hugging

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-66112569254537169262010-02-01T16:46:00.000-05:002010-02-01T16:46:37.995-05:00

Ok, so I am NOT buying a new car. After another miserable weekend of cars being sold out from under me and another saying "NOOO!! DON'T BUY ME!!" (by having a dead battery that we had to jump three times, that died that final time because I turned the heat on and had a bad back wheel, and a sales associate that was totally unwilling to dicker on the price - and no, they weren't a no haggle place

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-1261013445074267852010-01-29T20:16:00.000-05:002010-01-29T20:16:41.397-05:00

I dreamed i was driving a new car, and as i was driving down the road I was trying to figure out where all the bells and whistles were in the car. I remember driving over a bridge, and then was out of the car and in what felt like a large train station. there were gates to get through, fancier then regular turnstiles, but close. I was then taken to a staging area where i was waiting for a

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-48451178567207723702010-01-29T20:08:00.000-05:002010-01-29T20:08:37.671-05:00

*sigh* I don't quite know what to do. Two people emailed me about my car, the first didn't show. the second went so far as to have the car inspected, and they came up with $800 worth of work that should be done. not quite sure why they think both tie rods needs to be changed when the previous guy said just one, but c'est la vie.. They also recommend some break work. so i listed it at 3500

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-34819744744997302802010-01-26T10:51:00.001-05:002010-01-26T10:51:25.568-05:00

too good to last I guess :( I hope it is just a temporary thing, and tomorrow I'll be back down... a girl can hope

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Well now this is interesting. The last time I listed my car on CL, I got a couple of people who were interested, but it took a long time to get them. This time I listed my car and I almost immediately got three replies asking about the car. Unfortunately two of them were pretty much scams. The first seems legit. He says his wife could be interested, and they want to see it. I reply and

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-15012058968607373592010-01-25T10:18:00.000-05:002010-01-25T10:18:29.319-05:00

not quite sure I should be typing that, as I can just imagine what is going to happen tomorrow.. But.. that is what the scale told me this morning, so who am I to not shout it from the roof tops?? Ok so you are the only one I've told.. I wasn't all that clean this weekend, eating out a couple of times, but I was conservative and think I did OK (well the scale told me I did) and despite not

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-79231829323049376892010-01-24T08:01:00.000-05:002010-01-24T08:01:36.648-05:00

So in December, I went out to the local Christmas fairs, and bought up all the peanut butter fudge. I bought way more then I should have, but there have been years when I only get one small not the kind I like piece of fudge, so I was happy to find it all. At one point my DH joked that there was probably someone following me around wondering what happened to all the fudge. Well I guess I am

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-83433839838697837382010-01-24T07:55:00.000-05:002010-01-24T07:55:44.148-05:00

I really must remember that I can only remember two dreams at a time. I had two really interesting dreams the other day, but I kept forgetting to write them down. Then I had another one this morning, and one of the previous dreams disappeared. The one this morning was about one of my cats. 'F' is a neutered female cat that is about one year old in real life, but in my dream she was pregnant.

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-6496194898833834292010-01-21T13:21:00.000-05:002010-01-21T13:21:08.016-05:00

and I failed to mention that the evil lying scale decided to freak me out again. there was that jump down to 199, then shortly after I jumped down to 197.5. I've been there a week or so. Monday I had little to do but lay in bed and try to stay warm, so I exercised quite a bit and ended up burning over 1000 calories more then I took in. As a "thank you" my scale decided to tell me I weighed

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-45958643202499665362010-01-21T13:15:00.000-05:002010-01-21T13:15:48.463-05:00

I am either supposed to be hozed right now, or this is just the way station for *opportunity* Went out looking at cars last Saturday, and found another Volvo that worked very well. I had a few other cars to look at that day, so I left knowing that car had been on the lot since November I figured it would last one more day. Sunday I called in the AM and told them I wanted to put a deposit down

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-37250203565170345212010-01-14T12:46:00.000-05:002010-01-14T12:46:28.361-05:00

Ok, so I guess I am going to believe my scale. It has been reading 199 for three days now. Not quite sure what is going on, but I'm not going to care about it too much. DH has become sick. I HATE when he is sick. I want to run away and not deal with him till he is better. He becomes very whiney and pathetic, and can't ask for anything he needs, but whines about it and pussy foots around the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-67433201806085077612010-01-12T11:18:00.000-05:002010-01-12T11:18:05.625-05:00

yea, I'm totally hosed on that one. There is a list of things that need fixing on it. Something to do with the air conditioning ($300) something to do with my steering ($100-200) and something to do with my engine ($$$$$$$$) To remain drivable, I should fix the steering thing. The engine is more of a "it would run way better if you fixed this" thing, not that it will stop running if I don't.

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-13840212054880676652010-01-12T11:12:00.000-05:002010-01-12T11:12:17.967-05:00

a follow up to my trouble posts.. :) I did go out and buy the lemon cupcakes.. I was bad, I admit it.. but I know that I CAN fit yummy goodness into my diet and still be healthy if I am careful. Well I bought pink cupcakes at the same time (they say strawberry but we all know they are just pink flavored.. and if you have to ask what pink flavored is, then I feel a little bit sorry for you and a

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-20921151378718536582010-01-12T11:09:00.000-05:002010-01-12T11:09:20.619-05:00

I'm sure I did. and I'm sure I mentioned that is why I bought a second scale so that when one was being nasty to me, I would have a back up. Well the back up is nasty too. Scales are just evil. So I blogged that I had a bad weekend, and ended up eating 700 more calories then I normally do, and about 200 more then I burned off (thank you GoWear Fit) Well I realized it was actually 300, but

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-32253596114411490152010-01-10T11:10:00.000-05:002010-01-10T11:10:50.380-05:00

So I let the smoke out of my car the other day, and it took almost $800 to fix. While the mechanic was in there fixing it, he noticed another problem that is going to cost $300 to fix. Trying to figure out what to do, I thought it might not be a bad idea to invest in a good inspection of everything and see if this is everything that needs to be fixed, or if there is something else about to break

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-25588111559900812742010-01-10T10:59:00.000-05:002010-01-10T10:59:59.327-05:00

well I couldn't stop eating this weekend. We went over to a friend's house and i had two and a half pieces of pizza and dorritos. Then Sat I ate over 2000 calories but did not move out of bed, so for the first time in a long time I actually ate more calories then I burned off (I burned 1800 calories) I'm tired and cranky so I'm just going to go with this for a short while. I'm on plan at the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-32093155968386248642010-01-07T13:55:00.000-05:002010-01-07T13:55:41.875-05:00

well crud. I am so incredibly tired it isn't even funny. In the past I was so exhausted I went and saw a Dr. Dr. had NOTHING for me. Sent me to another Dr. This Dr. had NOTHING for me. So I bought Thyroid support supplement. I started getting energy. I forgot how tired I was. when the first bottle ran out I bought another one. I was with out them for a few days, and I was ok. Well this

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-38407246602612304532010-01-07T13:03:00.000-05:002010-01-07T13:03:07.510-05:00

So I have now burned 2800 calories. You'd think I'd be down to 203 not still stuck at 203.5 but noooooo.. grump grump grump. and what do I spy as I'm sitting here hungry waiting for some time to pass before eating lunch (or I'll be dead starving in the middle of the day) but new Hostess 100 calorie cupcakes in LEMON!! arrgh I can't seem to convince myself they are not editable. Nor could

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-40052598997644001702010-01-06T20:59:00.002-05:002010-01-06T20:59:57.648-05:00

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-7965126509724757242010-01-05T11:53:00.003-05:002010-01-05T12:08:59.004-05:00

So I figured it out :) I like it. Now I think I'm going to reconfigure my layout so it can be on permanently.. Update.. Well that was fun :) Not quite sure the ticker accurate reflects my goal, but it is set up to monitor when I've burned enough calories to lose 5 lbs.

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-17014475946856270252010-01-05T11:48:00.003-05:002010-01-05T11:48:52.785-05:00

Interesting. I figured how to set one up, but I'm not quite sure how to update it..

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-30432919367837979742010-01-05T11:48:00.000-05:002010-01-05T11:48:12.853-05:00

ha ha ha.. scale, very funny. (stupid scale) So as I said I weighed in over the holidays, and hadn't gained any weight, so I figured I'd be a little less cautious with my diet and ate well. So around the new year I weighed in at 206.5 I started being more careful with my diet on Sunday and figured I'd officially start back up on Monday. Sunday I was good calorie wise eating 1643 calories and

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-48425583199698360672010-01-05T10:58:00.000-05:002010-01-05T10:58:13.287-05:00

OMG.. I am so in love with a yogurt.. I would have preferred it be just a bit more lemon-ish, but it was by far one of the best yogurts I have ever eaten. Although for 250 calories for a regular size cup of yogurt it very well should have been!! It was nice and creamy with just a nice bite of the sour of yogurt that you would expect. The lemon was - well as i said it could have been a little

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-14181128666036587572010-01-04T12:32:00.000-05:002010-01-04T12:32:31.941-05:00

guess I went a little overboard after my last post and saw I wasn't gaining weight even though I wasn't following my diet very well. Guess I was following it better then I thought I was. but now the goodies are (mostly) gone from the house, and I am going to get back on track. My next depo shot is due the second week of February, so I need to decide between now and then if I am going to get it

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-76374857967960343792010-01-04T12:18:00.000-05:002010-01-04T12:18:29.770-05:00

“Often we don't listen to who we're meant to be because we're so busy trying to live out someone else's ideas. But other people and their opinions hold no power in defining our destiny.” — Oprah I found this quite amusing. The reason being is I watched the Today show this morning and saw the segment on Robyn Okrant and her book "Living Oprah" and how she spent an entire year living by and

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-76817947255672685422009-12-30T07:10:00.000-05:002009-12-30T07:10:57.816-05:00

Well this was not fun. I went to the dentist to deal with the pain I have been having on and off with one of my teeth. Dr did some prodding, didn't come up with anything, but an xray showed a small cavity that was probably being bothered when I bit just right, so he offered to fix it (UGH) and I went through with it. Upper left side. The Novocaine shot didn't hurt nearly as much as they

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-37019508539016294232009-12-28T16:38:00.000-05:002009-12-28T16:38:03.423-05:00

I'm cold.. *shiver* I'm at work, and the little space heater my boss bought me for Christmas last year died. it is a very very sad thing. Because I'm fairly certain if I had to sit her for more than an hour and a half my fingers would turn blue and I'd be friggen miserable. I have hope that my co-worker who is sitting in the cubbie behind me knocked out the power cord from the plug (yes,

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-70224004230626630412009-12-28T15:00:00.000-05:002009-12-28T15:00:19.793-05:00

I know, it has been a while. I have been busy, then I've been sick, and frankly I just haven't been feeling all that interesting lately so I've been avoiding. I did figure out why I enjoy crime shows so much though. I've been feeling pretty odd lately that all I seem to watch are the CSIs and NCISs of the tv world. I tried branching out into other shows, and quickly had to delete them off

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-90946402553988606442009-12-02T13:12:00.000-05:002009-12-02T13:12:14.448-05:00

Well lookie, I didn't blog about finally getting botox! A local skin care place was having an open house and was discounting botox to be $10 a unit. It was on 10/30. I went in and showed the woman my crinkly forehead that happens when I'm tired or thinking too hard, and she said 12 units would take care of that no problem. I wasn't much a fan of the injections. It was very much like a bee

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-50870400705092674012009-12-02T12:50:00.000-05:002009-12-02T12:50:25.301-05:00

There have been a couple stories that I've run across lately about how some places are making people who are overweight pay more or do more. The first was an ambulance service who was going to charge 1000$ if your BMI was over a certain number instead of the standard $600. The second was at the consumerist about a college requiring overweight people take a physical education course in order to

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-7266341449261031042009-11-16T10:40:00.000-05:002009-11-16T10:40:30.818-05:00

Ok, so I worked out for two hours yesterday.. so what. That shouldn't account for the drop in weight.. I know, because I've worked out for two hours before. I have a sneaking suspicion that the thyroid support supplement, and the adrenal fatigue supplement I've been taking has a lot more to do with this... especially since I had lasagna twice this weekend, and some Christmas fair cookies and

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-68314516110372017572009-11-11T09:40:00.003-05:002009-11-11T09:40:17.926-05:00

see more Lol Celebs

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What doesn't kill me does not make me stronger. It makes me anxious, bitchy, and vulnerable...but nobody wants to see that embroidered on a pillow. ~Lisa Kogan

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When I was younger. Old enough that I should have known better, but apparently not.. When I was younger I wanted something I should not have. Not having much to begin with, I was greedy for more. I wanted things that were not good for me, and I reached out to get them. I got a taste, and I liked it. But it was not to be. Looking back, it is a good thing that it did not happen. It is a

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-4186014082922246582009-11-09T11:13:00.000-05:002009-11-09T11:13:57.213-05:00

can we scream frustrated. I seriously am really wanting to follow through on my threat to get liposuction.. *sigh* I had a couple of odd dreams lately. One I was fishing. I used a three foot fish as bait, and I was expecting to catch a monster of a fish. I had little more then twine as fishing line, and when something bit on the line, I used neoprine gloves on top of my hand to guide the line

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-81364642037195728102009-11-03T17:05:00.000-05:002009-11-03T17:05:13.757-05:00

I have been weighing at 202.5 for a while now. Last night I woke up out of a dream and was awake, and was so for an hour or two. When that happens I always gain. It is frustrating as all get out, but at least I know that it is not real, and it WILL go away. What is super frustrating though is I ate about 1300 calories and I burned of 2700.. so (grumbles more about evil body not wanting to

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-31061480856928765112009-10-15T10:53:00.000-04:002009-10-15T10:53:23.510-04:00

Ok, so now it has been five days that I have been at 203.  According to my calculations, I have burned 4000 calories.. &lt sarcasm>I so love my body.. &lt/sarcasm> Now I will admit that I have had a few sugary things in the past few days, but 100 calories of low fat ice cream and half a whoopie pie (what, 200 calories?) should NOT prevent the 4000 deficit from showing up!!!  what about stupid

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-81034228180944768792009-10-13T13:07:00.000-04:002009-10-13T13:07:59.941-04:00

OMG a post not about my weight!!lol so I just finished my lunch salad, and thought Id share. Every Sunday, I go to the grocery store and buy a bag of romaine lettuce hearts, a red pepper, an onion and a cucumber.  Recently I have started adding a bag of young spinach to that as well.  I use half the bag one week, the other half the next. I have five 4 cup tupperware containers, and I slice a

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-81404833296013113312009-10-13T10:45:00.000-04:002009-10-13T10:45:45.867-04:00

I has been 3 days at 203. I should NOT complain, and be happy, but according to my records of calories burned thanks to my gowearfit and my recording of what I eat, I am now down 3058 calories.  There are only 3500 calories to a pound, so shouldn't I be 202.5???  *grumbles that weight loss is art and science, not just science*  I know if I'm going to be upset by the scale I shouldn't get on it

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-25657369973996176222009-10-12T15:07:00.000-04:002009-10-12T15:07:09.056-04:00

I set a goal to burn 3000 calories yesterday.  I burned 2700 - but I got seriously distracted, so I probably could have beat my goal if I had just stayed home.  I also ate about 1000 calories (200 of that was half a whoopie pie) so I had a half decent day calorie burn wise.  I rarely eat that few calories so I figure I'm ok.  Annoyingly I weighed 203 at 6am, and again at 8am.. (usually I lose a

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-21679366094601280922009-10-09T12:19:00.000-04:002009-10-09T12:19:01.640-04:00

well this was an interesting morning.  I got up at some ungodly hour.. I mean the sun wasn't even up (although in New England in October, that isn't THAT early) and since I was starving and I hadn't eaten since 6pm the night before, I thought it would be OK to weigh.. yea.. right.  So at 6am I weighed 206.5.  My throat hurt, so I had a Fiber One 50 calorie yogurt and a few sips of a drink (

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-45576878820525207572009-10-08T13:48:00.000-04:002009-10-08T13:48:55.708-04:00

Ok, this is seriously getting frustrating!!  I'm thinking of adding my caloric count to this blog (i wonder if there is a widget for that), simply to watch how many calories I'm burning and show the pounds I'm not losing!  There hasn't been a day this week when I wasn't under 500 calories, and most days it was up to 700+.  So by now you'd think I would have lost SOMETHING!! (besides my sanity!)

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-5466927757726541502009-10-07T12:37:00.000-04:002009-10-07T12:37:04.535-04:00

and annoyingly, the other scale said 205.5  Stupid scales..

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-43397799463130962952009-10-06T09:37:00.000-04:002009-10-06T09:37:12.307-04:00

well this is annoying.  Hey, at least it isn't 206.5 I realized something this morning, I hold on to things VERY tightly.  I think that is one of my major stressers in life.  If I could just learn to not hold on so tight to how I want life to go and just accept how it is going, I would probably be a lot better off.  (which of course is the one trait of DH that I hate and love and admire at the

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-45726538884288120342009-10-05T11:25:00.000-04:002009-10-05T11:25:24.283-04:00

or 203.5 depending on which scale you want to listen to, but I've been tracking on the one that read higher today, so that is what we'll go with. This weekend was kind of a wash.  According to my food tracking and my armband, I was in the negative at all times, but I ate junk and didn't exercise.  We'll see what happens in the next couple of days.  If I continue to lose weight I'm going to put

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-70655684479323449382009-10-02T12:15:00.000-04:002009-10-02T12:15:14.321-04:00

So I got up at 6am and weighed in at 206.5 and my chin hit my chest.  so friggen disappointing that I went back to bed.  I work a short day so I can exercise in the afternoon, so I took advantage of the warm bed and snoozed until about 8.  I got up and decided to weigh again for the fun of it, and I got the 204.5 My older scale said 204 so I'm going to believe it.  (they jocky back and forth as

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-24343364200072405252009-10-01T11:07:00.000-04:002009-10-01T11:07:17.001-04:00

*loud obnoxious rant* i was so sure that this time it would work.  I was certain that I would start losing weight again!!  arrgh! Today is going to be one of the most difficult of days for a variety of reasons. First of all the lying crappy scale that tells me I gained weight.  How can I not see that and say to heck with eating right and doing all this exercise.  If it is going to be mean to me

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-53022441073761057792009-09-28T12:00:00.000-04:002009-09-28T12:00:47.209-04:00

well 205 is impressive.. seeing it has been a long time since I've been under 206.. We'll see what happens. I don't really quite understand why this is working.  I haven't been overly exhausted lately, (not that I'm not tired, just not overly achingly so) and I even ate only 1000 calories one day this weekend and didn't feel deprived of anything.  I made it a point to eat 1200 the next day, but

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-49215380538742895512009-09-24T14:52:00.000-04:002009-09-24T14:52:40.049-04:00

Yup, I was eating too much :) hey, at least this time my body decided to let go of the weight (or water or whatever) Hopefully I can keep up the loss, and maybe (crosses fingers) get under 200lbs again!! I had a crying fest the other morning.  It was so bizzare.  I was exercising, and was annoyed that I have to exercise so much (I do it 6 days a week, I think I should do 7, but I rarely do) I

~*Connie*~noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3454314.post-29695855791343120912009-09-22T10:23:00.000-04:002009-09-22T10:23:52.800-04:00

Ok.  This is getting out of hand.  I haven't been really watching what i have been eating lately - and I was stuck at 206 regardless of what I ate for so long, that I've been lax.  I have been exercising. I've been experimenting with my exercise too. I have a heart rate monitor and it has been fun watching it and my gowearfit tell me which exercises burn the most calories.  Sitting still burns

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I think a lot of my mental issues stem from the fact that I am spending a lot of time hiding from the odd emotions that pop up. I will quite often feel anxious, desparate or depressed, and instead of acknowledging those emotions and letting them wash over me and out of me, I start fighting them. My subconcious rational brain starts saying things like "well there is nothing to be anxious about, so

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